The Impossible Love

Is he the one?

NATS POV

As soon as we get to Mr Herbett, we head back to the hotel..

Me and Parker fall asleep, like zombies...

That night I have a dream..

I dream of Parker, but the thing is, it is more of a nightmare than a dream..

He is sitting in a dark tunnel. Screaming,

Screaming my name! "Please don't leave me, Nat, please"

There are tears streaming down my face, probably the equivalent to a river..

And I'm running, running as fast as my little legs could carry me!

And I'm screaming,

"I'm sorry Parker, I can't stay!"

And I'm repeating it whilst running!

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I can't reach it!

This is so painful!

And then suddenly I feel hands on my shoulders!

I let out a strange strangled sounding scream.

And then I hear his voice, again..

But this time, he isn't screaming, he is whispering!

Whispering to me in a pleading tone of voice!

"Nat, Nat, please wake up, I'm right here, I'm here!"

I peel my eyes open slowly, qnd ontop of me is Parker, shirtless in navy blue boxers!

I feel sweaty and disgusting.. I'm still in shock..

I just grab him kinda aggressively and hug him, I hug him so hard as if my life depended on it!

He holds me back!

He looked as shocked as I felt..

He slowly peels away and says,

"You were having a bad dream Babe!"

I smile wryly and get up to have a shower!

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I feel so scared!

I don't know why to be honest, but I feel like this dream has  a Meaning..

I'm starting to feel like he doesn't deserve me.. He deserves a nice, smart and kind girl who will love him back as he loves her..

I don't think I can give him what he gives me..

He is amazing, I swear, he is so perfect..

But he isn't the one..

I don't get those tingles when he touches me.. I don't feel those butterflies in my stomach..

He isn't the one..

Then who is?

Will I be forever alone, a single pringle..

What  am I talking about!

Im just bullshitting!

But deep down inside, there is my subconscious, questioning me.

Are you bullshitting, are you?

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The day passes by pretty quickly..

We head to the hotel restaurant, to eat our last dinner, before we head back to our rooms, to pack our belongings!

Im sat next to Parker, as he keeps on sending me smiles.

I smile back, feeling a pang of guilt hit me!

'why are you doing this to him!'

My subconscious retorts at me!

She is so right.. But what am I supposed to do!

I'm too tired to even think about this right now. Maybe I will talk with L about it when we get back to Lindale, and settle down..

Next thing I know, we're on the bus back to Lindale!

Im just craving some shut eye, whilst Lara is blabbering on and on about her and her Romeo!

Not that i don't want to know! But just not at midnight!

Besides once we get to Lindale, in about an hour, she is sleeping over at my house, and we can talk as much as she wants!

Somehow I find escape to my sleep..

And then I'm awoken by bright lights!

We have got there! To Lindale..

And since we have parked, the stupid bus has these agonising and annoying hospital like, lights on..

I groan and get up, grabbing my bag and heading out of the bus, L shortly behind me..

I spot a zombie like Parker and head over to him and hug him..

My mum is waiting in the car, so I quickly say my goodbyes and me and Lara head to the car!

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I'm literally so apologetic about the late update and the really bad chapter, it's just I seem to be having writers block, and I don't know why..

Anyway thankyou for reading so far and I love you guys!!