Door of Happiness (Agravante Series #1)

KABANATA 17

Kabanata 17

Prove

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True love and true happiness, those are the only two things that I want to feel in this life because honestly, I never really felt those things. When my mother is still alive, yes, I'm happy. I felt the real happiness, I felt the real love. But when I found out the truth about my true identity, about my true family, plus the death of my mother, everything just went dark. No love. No happiness.

Now I want to feel that again. I want to feel the love and happiness, this time with my real family. I want them to love me, even more than the love my mother Sophie Juarez gave me. Not that I'm not contented of my mother's love for me... I just really want to feel the love of a real family. I want to feel them. I need their love. I need them.

Can't I ask for that? Just because I didn't grow up with them, does that mean I can't ask for love from them anymore?

I want to open that door that has been waiting for me for a long time. The door they closed so I couldn’t see the happiness and love that I should be feeling right now. Now I want to open it.

But I can't because no one wants to believe in me.

Kaya paano? Paano ko bubuksan ang pintong pilit nilang sinasarado? Even the people inside that door, my family, didn’t want to open it for me. They don’t want to believe me. So how will I open the door of happiness that I wanted? How will I escape this room full of darkness?

"Maupo ka muna, hija..." nilahad ni Pauline Agravante ang single sofa sa gilid.

Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa. My heart ache when I saw her eyes. Hindi ko alam ang naramdaman niya pero mabilis siyang nag iwas ng tingin at umupo sa tabi ni Marvino Agravante na nasa mahabang sofa.

Gusto ko nalang hindi paniwalaan ang mga sinabi ni Mama sa sulat na iniwan niya sa akin. I like to think that she just wanted me to have a good life so she wrote that in the letter. I didn't want to believe then. I just want to ignore everything that she said.

But nothing can beat my desire to feel the love of a real family. I know I am their child. I know I am an Agravante. I believe in my mother’s words. I know she's telling the truth.

Plus, gustong gusto akong paalisin ni Amelia. Takot siyang bumalik ako. Ang ibig sabihin lang no'n ay ako nga ang tunay na Agravante.

Yumuko ako at dahan dahang umupo sa single sofa. The interior of their house is beautiful. Their living room is large and there's also a large flat screen tv in the front. Above is a large chandelier. Hindi ko na nakita pa ang ibang bahagi ng bahay dahil masyado akong kabado at kagagaling ko lang sa pag iyak. Hindi ko na nagawa pang tignan ang bawat sulok ng bahay.

"Alfredo and Rolando are on their way. Let's just wait..." mahinahon na ngayon ang boses ni Marvino Agravante.

Nilagay ko ang mga kamay sa aking dalawang tuhod. May kaunting luha pa rin sa mga mata ko pero kalmado naman na ako ngayon. Kailangan kong lakasan ang loob ko. Kailangan kong maging matapang. Kailangan kong patunayan sa kanila na nagsasabi ako ng totoo at ganon rin ang Mama ko.

Nag angat ako ng tingin kina Pauline at Marvino Agravante. Nakatitig sa akin si Pauline habang seryosong nakatingin sa harapan si Marvino. Si Theodore Agravante na nasa single sofa rin sa harapan ko ay nakatingin sa akin, seryoso rin siya pero halatang malalim ang iniisip.

Tahimik lang kami. It's very awkward but I'm still happy that they let me enter their house. Kahit papaano hindi nila binalewala ang mga sinabi ko kahit alam kong sobra na akong nakaka abala.

"Hija, saan ka nga ulit nanggaling bago ka napunta rito?" tanong ni Theodore Agravante maya maya.

"Sa Cagayan de Oro po..." sagot ko.