Loud music blasting in a room full of people dancing and having fun, was exactly how I liked spending my weekends.
It was something about parties that I really enjoyed.
I loved how they made me feel.
I know kinda ironic that an ex alcoholic loves partying in environments filled with alcohol but they give me a good feeling.
I've never been much of a people person but during parties it's like your invisible and seen at the same time.
Nobody cares what your doing or wearing everyone's have a good fucking time sober or not.
I don't think i've ever went this long without going to a party .. it had been like 4 months.
If I didn't have that feeling back soon I was going to turn right back to vodka and I didn't want that.
I dropped jules off at her house this morning without telling her my plans.
I didn't mean any harm by it but I know relationships can be ruined without space. She needs time to herself just as much as I do.
Of course if she were to call and ask where I was i'd tell her, but I didn't see it necessary.
I took a shower and got dressed into an outfit I picked out the other night.
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Just something casual.
I opened the shoe box in the corner of my closet pulling out a small snack. It was just to lighten me up though.. I have more fun when i'm high and don't give a fuck.
I got in my car and made my way to a totally different district. I used to talk to girls every fucking where and it worked in my favour tonight just like every other.
I didn't bring any of my friends with me I just decided to go alone. Mainly because they all had something going on this week with their boos.
I pulled up to the party and right when I walked in I automatically went straight to the kitchen. I poured myself a root beer because it burns when you drink them and I needed something.
I started to scan the room see where everyone and everything was. My eyes soon fell upon ariana, ariana was my ex .. like an actual ex.
I never cheated on her it was a genuine relationship kinda like me and jules.
I was shocked to see her here but at the same time this was her neighborhood. I wasn't even thinking about her, I just didn't want a fight to pop off.
Even though our relationship was great it didn't compare to jules. Jules was fucking amazing everything she did was just fucking cool. And ariana was just a crazy ass person I wanted out of my life. Which I thought I already accomplished until now.
