"Alona! Si Gino"
I didn't like what I'm feeling, nang sagutin ko ang tawag galing kay tita Linda. Kinakabahan ako sa hindi ko alam na dahilan.
"T-tita," ang tanging lumabas sa akin dahil sa kaba na pumupilipit ngayon sa aking dibdib.
"Hindi ko sya matawagan, dapat ay kagabi pa sya naka balik sa hospital pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa sya bumabalik, hindi ko alam kung nasaan sya, kahit si Jacob hindi sya mahanap pinuntahan na nya sa bahay nyo pati sa opisina pero wala si Gino roon, Alona anak di ko na alam ang gagawin ko" sunod sunod na turan ni tita.
Hindi ko alam kung ano ang una kong iisipin, ang pagkawala ni Gino o ang tungkol sa hospital, naguguluhan ako sa mga nangyayari.
Nakarinig ako ng katok sa pintuan ng aking silid ngunit ni hindi ko man lang magawang sumagot dahil sa bumabagabag ngayon sa akin.
"H-hospital?" I said as I tried to control myself from asking more questions just to suffice my curiosity about what is happening. Parang ang dami kong hindi alam sa mga nangyayari.
"Oo diba pumunta sya sa inyo kagabi para sabihin sayo yung totoo...sandali, don't tell me?" tita said like she realized something.
"H-hindi ba kayo nagka-usap ni Gino kagabi?"
"H-hindi po tita, Nakita ko lang po sya pero bigla na lang syang nawala" I said as reality hit me na talagang nakita ko si Gino kahapon at hindi ako namalikmata lang, pero nawala na lang ito bigla.
Dahil ba kasama ko si Lucas kaya hindi na sya tumuloy? Ewan ko maging ako ay naguguluhan na sa kinikilos nya which is entirely the reason kung bakit nga ako umalis sa bahay namin.
"Alona, call me immediately when he calls you or pag nakita mo sya ha," she said
"Tita a-ano po yung tungkol sa hos-" hindi ko na natuloy pa ang itatanong ko dahil naputol na ang linya ng tawag.
Kunot noo akong napatitig sa cellphone ko ng dahil sa biglang pag baba ng tawag ni tita, bakit parang feeling ko may tinatago sa akin si tita. Para syang umiiwas, and it's been a while since noong last kaming magka usap and she seems aloof a while ago.
"Alona!, you ready?" It was my mom na nakasilip na sa pinto. Sya pala yung kanina pa kumakatok.
"You made me worry about you, hindi ka sumasagot, kanina pa ako kumakatok sa pintuan mo, sino ba yung kausap mo?" she asked in a soft tone.
"Si tita Linda po" I said na inilapag na ang phone ko sa gilid ko.
"Oh!, bakit ata napatawag sya?, It's been a while huh?" she said na umupo na sa edge ng kama sa may paanan ko while I'm resting my back on the headboard ever since tita Linda's call which made me end my sleep.
"Hinahanap nya po si Gino eh," I said still confused about what's going on.
Kahit galit ako kay Gino ay hindi maaalis sa akin na mag-alala sa kalagayan nya. Natatakot ako na paano kung may nangyari ng masama sa kanya, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kapag nagkataon.
Oo, galit ako, pero mas matimbang yung pagmamahal ko sa kaniya kaysa sa galit na nararamdaman ko. Ewan ang gulo.
Maybe I should look for him. Kailangan ko na rin siguro syang makausap.
"You should prepare, hija. We're leaving after you ate and drink your vitamin." Mom said as she stood
"Huh?" I asked absentmindedly
"You forgot about your check-up? Anyways, just prepare and go downstairs after you finish fixing yourself" she said na napa cross arm pa dahil nga sa napansin siguro nyang may pagka lutang ako today.
"O-okay mom," I said as I force to smile
Lumabas na si mom ng kwarto ko, it took me a couple of minutes before I decided to fix myself. Nang matapos ay bumaba na ako for my breakfast. Nang matapat ako sa mirrored wall before the kitchen ay huminto ako to look at my reflection.
The baby bump is already a bit visible maybe because I'm 8 weeks and almost 9 pregnant already, pero mukha lang akong busog or bloated sa suot ko.
I'm wearing a riffled powder blue cotton plain dress that is just an inch above my knee, maluwang ito sa akin pero mukha na syang mag fi-fit dahil sa shape ng belly ko which is the baby bump. The sleeves of the dress are just rightly fitted to my arms up to my elbow. It looks conservative pero ayos na sakin ito. I'm also loving the flat shoes that I'm wearing.
After checking myself, I went to the kitchen where mom's waiting. We just ate breakfast then umalis narin kami heading to my mom's friend which is an obstetrician.
"As you can see Alona, your child is just 2 months old, and the baby is just about the size of a raspberry. It still looks a lot like an alien, well that's what the other mothers describe their child, but some human features are starting to develop, the eyes, nose, mouth, and ears are growing on the outside, while important body systems like the respiratory organs and nerves are rapidly growing on the inside" the doctor said while showing us my child's feature.
It made me teary as I stare at the screen showing my child. Kahit na natawa ako sa sinabi ni doctora about the alien thing, and the raspberry. She's weird but I trust her since she's my mom's friend.
How I wish Gino's with me right now. Pero ano nga bang magagawa ko diba. Sana lang ay magpakita na sya kila tita Linda para hindi na ako mag-alala pa.
After my checkup ay umalis narin kami ni mom, I am so thankful that I have her with me through this journey of mine, its quite exciting, my journey towards motherhood. Kahit papaano ay nababawasan ang kaba ko, pero sana lang talaga sa susunod na checkup ko ay si Gino na ang kasama ko. Sana maayos pa ang problema namin, since para din naman iyon sa anak naming, kahit pa...
"Alona, I have some errands to Lake University, is it okay if dumaan muna tayo roon?" my mom said na nakatingin pa sa phone nya, probably because of the errand she's talking about which made my thoughts vanish.
"Sure mom," I said and smiled at her.
L. U. , it's been so long since I last went sa school na iyon. The place where Gino and I met and found each other.
Nang huminto ang SUV sa parking ay bumaba na si mom.
"Just wait for me here if you get bored mag lakad lakad ka, but wag kang gaanong lalayo and don't exhaust yourself, dear, remember that you're baring your child, okay?" mom said. She kissed my cheeks then flew out.
Okay, maghihintay na lang siguro ako dito sa loob ng sasakyan. But It's only 20 minutes ng ma bored ako and decided to step out of the car.
I went inside the university, seeing the place brought a lot of memories back at me. Yung mga masasayang alaala ko sa school na ito, yung nakakatawa, and even those sad and stress memories that I have in this university.
Pinuntahan ko yung library kung saan kami madalas tumambay nila Mica, then after I went to the gym where I confessed to Lucas but end up being rejected. Nasa garden na ako ng mapagdesisyunan kong umupo sa bench dahil sa pagod narin sa paglalakad na ginawa ko kanina.
Ang tagal na rin pala, everything seems like a dream ngayon. Dreams that are worthy to be treasured and remembered.
I am staring at the blue sky when I remembered something. Tumayo ako at nagsimulang maglakad papunta sa kung saan nagsimula ang lahat sa amin ni Gino.
The tree behind the gym near the garden na bihirang puntahan ng mga estudyante. Yung puno na naging saksi ng rejection ko kay Lucas, and that same tree where Gino first approached me with his handkerchief.
I had to open the small gate bago ko narating yung spot but the scenery that I am expecting ay hindi tulad ng inaasahan ko. I am expecting the tree in the center and the grass field below the small hill. This place isn't part of the school. It's between the back of the gym and the garden. The open space behind the walls of the university.
Natagpuan ko ang lugar na ito noong mga panahong gusto kong magtago mula sa pagka reject ni Lucas and little did I know that Gino followed me in here.
Just like how shock I am before, this time I'm seeing that same man laying on the tree trunk while looking at the sky.
"G-gino..." I called his name
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