Fine Line

20.

One week later...

Chase

I do not know what I am suppose to do anymore...I really wanted the baby but I knew on the other hands I'd have to do it alone. Tanner made it perfectly clear no kids! One day but not now...the school understood so I got to finish my stuff early. I have a choice to graduate or just get my diploma mailed too me.

My mother almost killing, hurt my heart hurt me deeply because she cared more for a man who not only hurt me but many other girls. I've been through so fucking much I just want one good thing in my fucking life! Is that too much to ask for because it seems it is...I hate it!

The door opens slowly there was three dips in the bed. Olivia, Kenzie and Aurora my best friends. With chick-fil-la and a big bag of gummy worms.

"You know we have your back whatever you decide with this graduation thing you know that right?" Olivia asked

"Yeah, I know."

"Girl we love you but you need to shower." Aurora holds her nose "you've got to get things going sooner or later."

"Let's start with a shower and then we can eat the food and watch movies." Kenzie smirks holding up the gummy worms.

"Okay, okay but I can shower without any help." dragging myself out of bed, as they walked out of the bedroom.

Since I was shot and the miscarriage the mirrors are my enemies. I don't even let Tanner see me naked anymore, and I get it if he thought differently of me we don't talk much since it happened. I don't know how he is feeling honestly.

The bathroom door opened up, there he stood my boyfriend. "Sorry I don't like using the other bathroom anymore..." he goes to leave then stops. Slamming the door behind him leaving us in the bathroom.

"I am not fucking sorry Chase, I am not sorry that I want to be here for you and love you and remind you how beautiful you are. You are my fucking world Chase Elizabeth Morgan and I'd be damned if I am going to let you judge yourself because of this. My fucking heart beats entirely for you, and it's breaking the distance, the silence will be the death of me Chase I need you more than anything we both lost the baby and I lost my child I can't loose you." Tanner let's out running his hands through his hair in frustration.

"Is it bad if I feel less attractive next to you, when you are the most beautiful living breathing person I've laid eyes on?" Our eyes met and the breath I didn't know I was holding in slowly faded.

"Everything about you screams magnificent, that's why I fell for you, gosh Chase I was a fucking player before you, I never cared about my friends feelings before you, I didn't go home before you, I didn't care to change before you...everything I am now is better because of you. Don't you get it? You were the missing piece I've been searching for."

"I love you." I whisper softly "I have loved you since you had my back against Mitch after the game."

Tanner kisses me softly, causing me to smile in the kiss. "You know I have to shower."

"Yeah I know we are going to shower and then I will let you have your fun with your besties as you say, but I am going out with the guys." Tanner smiles

After the shower I had put a pair of Tanner shorts and one of his Braves shirts. Tanner kisses me goodbye. Leaving the house to my best friends.

Tanner.

Pulling up to my old house seems so strange honestly. I just need my buds...I really need them. I can't say what I need to say honestly, but I don't won't to make her feel way worse than she does.

"Hey bud, needed to get away from the girls?" Max asked putting his thumb into my shoulder

"Oh yeah.." giving off the fakest laugh ever.

"Tanner, what's wrong?"

We walk into the living taking a seat, Tyler, Davis, And Aj were sitting on the sofa watching Netflix.

"Davis did you know, did you know she was pregnant?" the words just fell from my mouth

"Dude no, I would've told you that you should know." Davis sits up pausing the tv

"Dude did you come to fight?" Tyler ask

"We don't need to fight." Davis shakes his head

"No, I don't wanna fight you all are my boys." I say running my hands through my hair.

"Then why did you ask such a dumb question?" Davis fixes his shirt

"If I could've know earlier if I could've know she was..." tears slip down my face "maybe I could've been I don't know, I couldn't save my child or her from her mother."

Max pulls me into a hug as I cry hard.

"Dude, no it's not your fault it's not you did everything you were suppose to do and that was be a boyfriend." Max softly says

"Fuck I hate seeing you break down." Davis groans "I am so fucking sorry."

"What can we do for you man." Aj says

"I don't fucking know, I am hurt I am fucking sad and I feel like a failure." Wiping my tears

"It's okay to feel this way man, because you have every reason to feel sad, mad, and torn." Tyler looks down

"I will order us pizza." AJ gets up walking out

"You don't think we didn't wanna be uncles it would be so fucking fun, but right now isn't a good time for you two to be parents it was a sign." Davis laughs "you know, we have graduation coming up and you are about to be traveling for baseball."

"Yeah, but man I feel bad because she had to grow through all that pain and feeling and her mom is so fucking crazy!" Shaking my head

"Listen, you and her are going to be stronger than ever, and you need to realize something Chase isn't going anywhere she loves you." Max smirks

"Yeah, I think I'd die without her with me." Confessing to the boys.

"Fuck your are so in love with her, and I fucking want that." Davis groans

"Sorry Davis, you have to find your own person can't have my girl." We joke

"I still can't believe Max has a girlfriend." Tyler laughs 

"Olivia is the best for me honestly, don't even know how a ugly fuck like me got with such a babe like her." Max blushes

"Oh my god, simp!" AJ laughs coming back in the living room

"Dude no, you go to every single one of Kenzie games even if they are five hours away like come on." Tyler laughs

"She so fucking good, she an awesome spiker." AJ smiles softly

"Okay we are all fucking simps."  I laugh loudly

Look at us dating besides Davis. I am glad these guys are my best friends.

——————