Fine Line

Letter

- remember when Tanner found those pills? Well, he wrote a letter to Chase and never gave it to her. Cause our boy is bi-polar

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Chase,

I've always had money, I've always had everything I could ask for. My life has always been easy, except when it came to you. Nothing was ever easy. Nothing could be easy with you. I've always gone on with my years not knowing you, or caring. You are this person who doesn't show anyone when you are hurt, or when someone hurts you. You think you're weak, but in this world, it's me who is weak. Since you've come into my life I've seen brighter days, I've seen struggle, you made me work for everything. Seeing those pills made it all too real for me. Seeing you like that, hiding them like that. I couldn't stop picturing you downing those pills any time your mother hurt you, or anyone. I wonder if you took those pills because of me? I wonder if I ever made you feel so worthless that the small white pill was the choice. I want you to know, I am so fucking sorry for everything you've ever been through. I wished we knew each other sooner! I would've helped you! I would've been there to let you cry. I can't help but think about you when I go to bed, I smile for real not some sleazy fuck boy smile. A real genuine smile, it's all for you, Chase. My hands hurt to not be in yours, when I close my eyes and I hear your voice I swear God was trying to tell me that you were the one. I was in love once and she broke me. Broke me good. I healed with sex and being a player. I never needed pills, I want to understand baby. I want to understand why you think the pills were everything? I pray you never want to take them again with me. I cried I cry for you, Chase. I cry for us. I truly never healed right until you. I hope you look at me and see a man worth your time, when you look at me I hope you see the father of your future kids. When you look at me I hope that pill is out of your thoughts. Chase I need you here on this earth with me, you survived so much baby and I think it was to get to me. I swear one day I'll be man enough to make us official. One day I will be the man you need! I'll die for you Chase, I'll give up baseball for you, I'll give up anything you ask me to baby. Because my heart is beating for you, when you lay on my chest and hear it, it's talking only to you. Please don't take those pills ever again! Please because this world will become dark. This place will become my hell without you. I just found out about my mother and now seeing the pills it's all
Too much Chase...help me understand?! Help me know? I'm so back and forth in this letter, but just know these seven days without you have been my fucking breaking point. I love you, Chase Elizabeth Morgan.