Crying Skies, Rain And Discarded Memories

who am i?

It's raining, the windows are shaking,

My emotions are trapped, can't awaken,

My word play is bad, no comparison,

This rooms seems so small or is that just my mind playing,

Games with me when I feel down.

Anxiety keeps me going out,

If only my moods changed with the seasons,

They didn't like me,

my sexuality was the only reason.

I'm trapped inside these four walls,

Not of this house, but of my mind.

And I'm searching and searching for a way out,

But maybe that's not what I want to find.

Can't define,

What I'm feeling,

No way out,

So I'm concealing,

What I feel,

Who I am.

Who am I?