𝕚 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕚 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 | txt soobin fanfic

chapter three

y/f/n pov:

"but it's still unfair... why does everything good go to y/n, and only y/n! nothing good ever happens to me... be it love life, school life, let alone home life. i'm such a failure..." i said as i let tears come out from my eyes. why was i willing to tell soobin all these? 

"don't say that about yourself, you aren't a failure and never will be... even if life doesn't go well, it still goes on, so we gotta live it how we like it, even if the worst possible outcome comes, we still gotta go on, right?

i understand why you did all that, you must've loved felix a lot. but now that he and y/n have gotten together, we have to learn to let go, don't we? even if  we can't possibly keep loving the same person, let alone if he's taken, right? if now felix is taken, look around and find other people who might love you as much, shouldn't you?" soobin asked.

wow- those words of wisdom somehow seemed to help a lot. "yeah- and thanks soobin, that really helped," i said. " no problem, call me again if you need me," he said, using his fingers to wipe off my tears, "and smile more, you look really pretty when you smile." "smile more, you look really pretty when you smile" those words kept ringing in my head. why? cuz no one has ever said that to me.

"okayy," i told him, letting out a true big smile. "yep, just like that. you look great," he said, ruffling my hair, "i'll get going first, see ya around, bye." i waved back and replied, "bye soobin." "look around and find people who might love you as much" was he signaling something? nah, i must be reading too much into that... anyway who would even fall for me...

i went home and laid on my bed. why was it that y/n could get felix, but i'm still with no one, just me alone. why is it like this? y/n has such a grumpy personality, but she has felix who somehow, appreciates her grumpiness. and how about me? i don't have a grumpy personality, yet no one is willing to accept me?

life is so unfair, but thinking about what soobin said, it seems like he went through way more than me. guess i shouldn't be complaining... i should just get ready for the coming field trip... i started to pack according to the packing list mr han gave this morning and soon finished packing. 

suddenly, a phone notification came in. 

!! form for camp buddies !!

please list down who you want to be paired with, so it's easier for me to make groupings. i will not restrict groupings to be only within your individual genders, even if you  write someone of the opposite gender, i might still pair you two together. 

- mr han

i want to be paired with| 

                                                   y/n

the suggested names listed "y/n", since i would usually request to be paired with y/n, but not this time anymore. she would probably put felix and felix would put her. who should i put then?

unknown number

hey

it's me soobin

you blocked me
with my other 
number so i got 
a new one to chat
with you

have you seen the 
form?

who are you planning
to write?

hmm, soobin... isn't a really bad choice since he's counted my closest friend since i don't have any others.

i might put yours...

you don't mind right?

i mean... i'm not close
with the other people
in our class...

true enough... sure
then, i'll put yours too

see you then!

so i'm gonna be paired with soobin... i guess that's fine too, it's better than being with someone i don't even know.

with that, i typed his name in without hesitation and submitted.

!! form for camp buddies !!

please list down who you want to be paired with, so it's easier for me to make groupings. i will not restrict groupings to be only within your individual genders, even if you write someone of the opposite gender, i might still pair you two together.

- mr han

i want to be paired with choi soobin

submit

after i clicked submit, i was brought to another screen.

thank you for submitting!

guess i'm done for the day...

a.n. i didn't know where to insert this lolol but y/n quit her job at the fast food restaurant soon after and soobin still works there he just got leave for the camp :)