i want to smile
i want to be happy
i know they say fake it till u makes it
but when it were real they proceeded to break it
there were times those smiles were felt
a time those tears were happy
a time my heart werent broke
a time a spoke
when i never kept it in but today im just fine
i used to wish for someone i could call mine
There were a time i felt complete
but u let that go and led my world to defeat
now i lay in bed drowned in thoughts and temptation
i try my best to ignore them and continuoisly push altercation
but my anxiety wins it always does
i can't fight it anymore
i can't help my depression
i thought i were strong
but its came to be true to some extent im wrong
~H1
