i done it
the one thing ive fought to avoid for years
i done it
all those days i stopped myself wasted
all those nights i cried wasted
all that effort wasted
i done it
I took the pills
hoping one of them kills
it were useless, pointless
That thing i thought about for years
there were no point
i done it
i wish i haden't
i thought i were stronger
ive only made everything longer
i done it
i stood there crying
pills insight
main fantasy dying
i done it
pills lie within my palm
why the fuck do i turn to self harm
i done it
tears trickle down my face
sit on her bed partially made of lace
i done it
took the first two, knew i should stop
i wanted to end it
feeling blue
but not like this i knew it werent the answer
i done it
didnt stop there
my thoughts consist of finishing the job
i couldnt leave it halfway
barely ingesting my future id pay
i done it
four from each pack maybe eight
wanted to go back probably too late
the doctors said i took a dozen
Were it their machine or my memory broken
i done it
ran downstairs
sat down
start to feel dizzy
im not joking do i look like a clown
i done it
called my sister
tell her what ive done
i dont remember much but my head spun
thats the least i remember of being home
i done it
and so after a couple days i wake up
panting,
i had an idea of what had happened but where were i
voices are all i heard
can you feel this is she awake
little they said in my mind were an earthqauke
i slept atleast another day
i guess at this point id have to admit
i werent okay
i thought id die
dont get me wrong im glad i didnt
thoughts run through my mind
the main being regret
i need to move on but how do i forget
~H1
