i wanna die right now
but i dont somehow
i wanna eat all day
but i guess im okay
i wanna workout
But it rather not shout
i wanna smile
i push emotions in a pile
i want to be okay
what do i say
i want to speak up
but i dont know how
i want to try
but im okay
another lie
two voices in my head
ones me the other i need dead
tell me what to do
what to say
and so later on with guilt i pay
im stuck between
wanting to do stuff
but not being asked to get up
having depression and anxiety is
like constantly fighting a battle in your mind
just waiting for the day you loose
waiting for the day you choose
a way out won't come
the only way is to make one
~H1
