We are now sitting on the bench here in the hospital's garden, humupa na ang bugso ng emosyon na naramdaman namin kanina.
Carefully, I listen as he explains and tells me his side. All I did was cry and cry and he just hugs me and continues his side.
"I need to see a psychiatrist for a year". Mahinahon kong sambit sa kaniya habang nakaupo kami pareho at nakatanaw sa langit.
I look at him as our gazes meets each other, pain and sadness were evident in his eyes.
"T-that's the effect of that night to me, hindi na ako nagkakakain, kulang sa tulog kasi nagsabay pa sa shift sa ospital, I was lost that time".
He watches me intently as I utter those words, I decided to look at his eyes again and focus on that.
Kahit ilang beses ko pa lang itanggi, sa kaniya at sa kaniya pa din pala ang bagsak ko.
"I thought I have moved on yun pala, nasanay lang ako ng wala ka sa tabi ko. I thought I already unloved you pero iniwasan ko lang pa lang alalahanin ka".
Kaya hindi din magwork yung mga lalaking pinapakilala sa akin ng mga kaibigan ko kasi ayaw ko because inside me, there is still a glint of hope that he will be back.
He sighed and held my hand tighter as he notices the bracelet clinging on my wrist, "You still have this?". I nodded at his question and there, I saw him smile.
"Bakit? Tingin mo itatapon ko or ipapamigay ko iyan?". Biro ko sa kaniya pero nakita kong tumango siya sa sinabi ko. Ni hindi nga sumagi sa isip kong palitan ka eh, itapon pa kaya yung bigay mo.
He awkwardly scratches his head and lets out a small smile, "After all of those things, I expect you to leave no traces of me".
I did, no. Scratch that, I tried.
I also look down at his wrist that is holding mine, there I saw the Rolex watch that I brought him on his graduation. Napansin niya ata na nakatingin ako duon kaya mas inilapit niya sa akin ang palapulsuhan niya na iyon.
"I always use this; I never remove it except if I am showering. It just reminds me of you and your smile when you gave me this". He said seriously.
My heart beats fast, I did not expect him to still have feelings for me. Pitong taon ba naman eh.
Kahit ano pa lang iwas ko na alalahanin yung nararamdaman ko para sa kaniya, hindi ko din pala matatakasan. Lalo na nung narinig ko na yung dahilan at lahat tungkol sa kaniya, I suddenly feel bad.
Hindi lang pala ako yung nagdusa at nasaktan, I was hurt because I thought ganun lang ako kadaling sukuan eh pero siya nasaktan dahil kahit na gusto niyang manatili sa tabi ko. He thinks that I will only be harmed.
"Nga pala, I know it's too late pero congratulations. You've already reached your dream; I am proud of you". I stated and smiled afterward.
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