cherry // draco malfoy

18.) Jealousy

Madeline's POV

"Why the hell do you think you can go around punching people?!" I shouted just as Draco closed his door. He ignored my question and walked towards the window, looking out it as he ran his hand through his hair.

"Are you seriously not going to say anything?! You drag me away from my friends claiming you want to talk just to ignore me-"

"Shut up Potter! I'm thinking!" He shouts, shooting a deathly glare my way. I roll my eyes and grab the door handle but right as I turn it, Draco grabs my wrist.

"Why Alexander?"

The room goes silent as he slowly drops my wrist. I sighed and sat down on his bed, looking up at the blonde who watched me with a mix of anger and sadness in his eyes. Why did he care who I went to the ball with? Why did he care I kissed Alexander?

"He is my friend." I eventually muttered. I didn't know what else to say. I didn't have romantic feelings for Alexander. He kissed me and I wasn't against the attention he gave me.

"Friends don't kiss-"

"Listen Draco, I don't go around punching people you talk to, do I? No! Just because you can't control your emotions doesn't mean you get to go around hurting people I care about"

The room went silent. Draco's eyes snapped with rage but within a blink of an eye his face was back to the classic emotionless Malfoy facade.

"You're grown. Learn how to use your words like a normal fucking person!" I hissed, jumping up from Draco's bed. "Get your shit together before you come at me or my friends again, Malfoy" I muttered as I stormed out of the room.

I felt my eyes getting watery as I rushed through the corridors towards my dorm. I hate yelling at him. In a perfect world I would never raise my voice at him and he would never raise his voice at me. How could I like someone with so much hate in them? Someone so insecure like Draco Malfoy? He puts me through constant battles where I feel happy and safe than the next moment I'm holding back tears because of his words and his actions.

I didn't know how Draco felt. He ghosts me and leaves me for another girl then decides to let his anger and jealousy out the moment I'm with another guy.

I know Draco isn't healthy for me but something in me feels like I'm capable of fixing him, of helping him. Draco Malfoy isn't the boy everyone thinks he is, he needs someone to believe in him and I want to be that person. But at what cost?

I reached my dorm, slamming my door shut behind me before sliding down against the wooden door, tears falling from my eyes.

"Madeline?"

Alexander.

"Did he hurt you?" His voice panics as he rushed over to me, moving a strand of hair from my face.

I shook my head, wiping away the tears quickly. "No, he didn't hurt me. He's just a dumbass" I sighed.

Alexander chuckles softly, sitting next to me against the door.

"Yeah, yeah he is"

We sat in silence for a moment but it was a comfortable silence. For that moment there was no chaos or yelling. We could finally breathe.

"Are you feeling okay?" I ask softly, glancing over at boy who shrugged.

"Got a nice bruise forming, makes me look pretty badass though" he jokes. Alexander always tries making every bad situation feel less shitty.

"Plus Blaise was kind enough to give me a fresh joint" he smirked, pulling on a perfectly rolled joint from his pocket and dangling it in front of me. "Might help take some pain away, shall we try?"

I laugh and nod, getting up to find my matches to light the herbs.

The night rolled on, we shared the joint until there was nothing left to smoke. Alexander said it definitely helped with the pain but I think thats only because we were both high as hell, basically on another planet. We ended up falling asleep on a pile of pillows and blankets in the middle of the dorm.

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"Good morning dumb and dumbest!" Klaus' voice rang through my dorm, making me groan and roll over, accidentally slapping Alexander.

"Merlin Madeline" Alexander groaned, sitting up. I mumbled a sorry, rubbing my eyes as I sat up. It had to be at least 6am.

"You idiots are lucky Theo and I came to check on you! Room smelt like absolute skunk!" Klaus sighs, handing us both mugs of coffee.

"Where's Blair?"

"Her and Blaise had a late night at the astronomy tower so I assume she stayed at his place of living"

I chuckled softly, taking a sip of the hot coffee. I taught Klaus how to make the perfect almond milk coffee, best decision ever.

"From the smell and looks of it, I'm assuming you two didn't bone?" Klaus teases as he looks through the pile of rings on Blair's dresser.

Alexander tosses a pillow right at Klaus' head, mumbling some profanities as he sips his coffee. I smile and nudge Alexander, motioning for him to look at Theo who's wearing Klaus' hoodie.

"Guess we're the only ones who didn't bone anyone" I whisper, making him spit his coffee out, trying to contain his laugh. Theo for sure heard us as he sent glares our way.

I usher the boys out of my room so I can get ready for the day, considering I looked like a complete bum.

I couldn't help but replay the events of last night. It was the first time I ever truly screamed at Draco. Our first really big fight, and I hated it. I hated how I felt leaving his dorm, I hated how I felt sitting alone in my dorm. I couldn't unsee the way his face went from rage to emotionless. I wish things weren't so complicated with us.

Draco Malfoy was the enemy but I don't want him to be.

A/N

Hi! sorry for being MIA, university is kicking my absolute ass and I am sick basically every other day lol.. anyways my life has been chaos so prepare for this book to suddenly get a lil spicy :)