Different

Chapter 12

Recommended song: Little things

A month later

It's been a month since the car accident. I got back my car and my injuries feel much better. I saw Harry again, several times a week. Sometimes he came to my place and we talked for hours or we just watched a movie. Other times I went to his house and we had a good time with the boys. We didn't hang out in public a lot, probably because of the paparazzi.

Today I'm in a dull mood. Hanna should have come this weekend but she had to cancel. And also, this is the last day that the boys spend in London. They're flying to New-York tonight, after their show and won't coming back home for two months. So Harry offered me to come to see them at their last show, which I accepted with pleasure.

I hug the boys one last time before the show starts otherwise I won't see them after, since they're immediately leaving for the airport.

"I'll miss you " Harry whispers in my ear as he hugs me tight

"I'll miss you too"

"Don't be sad, I see you in two months" he puts his finger under my chain to raise my hear towards him and grins, putting a kiss on my forehead.

I fake a smile. It's very hard for me to see him leaving . I know that I'm already very lucky to have met him but still.
I'm very attached to him. I've always been actually but now that we're some weird kind of friends I'm much more attached.
And I won't only miss him. I'll miss Niall for his love of life , Louis for his stupid jokes and his insolence, Zayn for his big heart and Liam for his kindness. I wonder how my life will be without the boys now that I spent this last two months with them.

During the show, Harry never stops winking at me and smiling at me. He looks so cute but so hot at the same time. He's over excited as usual and changes notes, dances and jumps everywhere, does the whale thing with water, grabs his crotch and does all the other stuffs that drive the fans crazy.
He finally calms down during Little Things and instead of sitting where he should, he sits on the side of the stage, face to me. During the whole song he never stops looking at me. His gaze is so deep and so calm and the same time.
Comes his solo, he keeps singing without taking his eyes off me.

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape, you never want to see how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans but you're perfect to me.
I won't let this little things slip out of my mouth, but if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to "I'm in love with you" and all these little things

At this last sentence my mouth falls open and I remain speechless. There's something about the way he said "I'm in love with you"... It was weird. He didn't even sing the words, he spoke them. He said it with so much conviction and looking so deep in my eyes that it seemed like he... meant it ?

"You are ?" I whisper mumbling, looking at him straight in the eyes. Which is useless because from where he is, he probably can't hear what I'm saying and by the time the song moved on he doesn't know what I'm talking about.

But he seems to understand, reading on my lips what I just said. He nods his head and his lips slowly move saying "I am" with a beautiful smile that reveals his dimples and illuminates all his face.

My heart gots carried away. No fucking way. Harry Styles, in love with me, that's insane. I need to see him, I need to talk to him. I need to hear it from his mouth, for real, not from a song.

The show has just finished, I try to make my way out but there are so much fans pushing I can't advance. Finally I get out of the stadium and run to their car. Of course, their van is gone so I jump into a cab who drives me to the airport. I can't let him leave without me knowing if what he said earlier was a misunderstanding or not. I need answers. I need to know if he really loves me. I'm not going to wait two months to have that answer.
When I arrive at the airport I rush to find them. I hope it's not too late I can't stop repeating in my head.
I run to the passport zone. I know that I won't be able to go further after this zone, they won't let me pass.
When I arrive I see far in the distance, Niall passing the security zone and heading towards the boarding gate.
Fuck. It's too late. I burst into tears and fall to pieces on the floor.