Different

Chapter 13

Recommended song: I should have kissed you

On my way back from the airport I can't stop crying. He's gone. I don't even have an international credit to contact him, I don't know how I will keep in touch with him.
A part of me tells me that it's better that way. If I had been able to talk to him at the airport and know how he feels about me, my life would have totally changed. I would have been more than his friend and would have became the subject of all the media, the rumours and criticisms. I wouldn't have had a stable life anymore and honestly I know that I'd never have been ready for that because it scares me way too much. So yeah maybe that's a good thing that we stay away from each other for two months. I'll be able to live my life how it was supposed to be. Because right now, this is not me. This is not the life that I usually live.

I finally arrive at the foot of my building and park my car when, to my great astonishment, I see him. My jaw drops and my hearts melts and the sight of the curly boy, soaked and sat in the rain. I step towards him surprised, wiping my tears away.

"Harry ? What.. Why are you here ? Aren't you supposed to be on the plane ?"

As he sees me he jumps on his feet and locks his gaze into mine.

"Thanks God you're here. I need to talk to you, let's have a walk. Have you been crying?"

"No" I lie

We walk towards the bridge next to the Big Ben without saying a word. It's raining cats and dogs and the streets are dark and foggy.
Finally he breaks the silence.

"Where were you ? I've been waiting for you for an hour after the show !" He looks like he's annoyed and mad but his tone is calm.

"Oh hum..." I'm not sure what to say. He could think I'm crazy if I tell him that I pursued him to the airport and that I almost hit the security guard to let me pass.
"I was at the airport... I needed to talk to you before you leave. But when I arrived I saw Niall so I thought it was too late"

"Is that why you were crying ? Because you thought that I was gone ?" He asks surprised. He looks up at me to make eye contact but I look away, embarrassed.

"Yeah... Well not just because of that. It's just that I needed to know if..."I take a deep breath. "Anyway, I just needed to see you before you leave"

"You needed to know if I meant it when I said "I'm in love with you" in Little Things ?"
He smirks. His eyes try to meet mine again but I immediately look down and remain quiet, not sure what to say. Then, he suddenly stops walking. He grabs me by the wrist and makes me face him. This time my gaze drops into his and we stare at each other for a few seconds before he takes a deep breath and speak again.

"Because I am. I am in love with you. From the first time I saw you at that charity ball, I knew you wouldn't be just a fan among the others. You were, you are different. There's  something about you that I can't let go. And when you had that car accident I realised that I couldn't live without you because I feel so good and so normal when I'm with you. At that moment I realised that I felt for you. I don't know how this happened, but I know for sure that I love you."

My heart pounds. His eyes are wide and calm and rain is flowing on his face. He looks so marvellous with his grey beanie and his black coat.

"I... I love you too" I mumble. Jeez, I sound so pathetic. He just did a beautiful love declaration and this is all I can say. "I mean... I've always loved you but this time, it's different. When we first met, you were just my crush and I really liked you but now you're more than my man crush. You're the reason I smile everyday and the reason I laugh. I love you at a point where seeing you leave is unbearable for me. I didn't say it before because I was scared and I didn't want to scare you as well but I felt for you the first a long time ago, when I realised that the way I imagined you wasn't just an idealisation but reality."

His dimples grow as I'm speaking and he eyes are sparkling. He steps closer and cups my face with his cold hands. It's freezing, we're soaked, and some fans must be staring at us but the only thing I care about right now is his green eyes dropped into mine.

"So... Is this the part where you kiss me ?" I smirk.

"Hmm... What do you think ?" He smiles, putting his arms around my waist and pulling me into his chest.

"I think that it's raining and that you've always dreamed of a kiss in the rain so maybe -"

I don't even have time to finish my sentence that he interrupts me by stepping even closer and pressing his full lips on mine.