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This can't be happening. No, God no ! I rush to the hospital, hoping it's not too late. Liam called me an hour ago telling me that Harry had been in a car accident. He didn't give me any details but it seemed very bad.
"Charlotte !" Hanna shouts behind me after I parked the car
I ignore her and keep running through the parking lot. When I arrive in the hall of the A&E, I see Niall sat on the floor, leaned on the wall, his head buried in his hands
"Niall ! Where's Harry ?" I worry
"Charlotte... I'm sorry but it's very bad. He's in a coma"
"No..." I step backwards "what happened ?" I mumble
"He took the car to visit you yesterday night. But he never came back. We started to get worried and then the hospital called us, saying he had been in a car accident and was in a coma. They said he doesn't have a long time to live." Niall explains, his face pale
"I...I need to see him" I tell him and he leads me to his room. Every step I take closer to his room scares me. I'm afraid of how he will be when I open the door of his room. If he will still be alive or not, if he will be totally disfigured by the injuries or not.
"It's here, I'll leave you alone with him" he says and joins the other boys in the corridor. They looked pretty distressed when I saw them.
I enter the room and I see him. He's laid down on his bed, his eyes and his mouth close. His head is encircled with a bandage and drips are hammered everywhere in his skin. There is not a single noise in the room, except the beep of the machine, here to remind me that they're the only things that keep him alive. He looks so weak but so serene. I step closer and put his hands into mine.
"Harry" I whisper and he doesn't move. I sigh but keep talking to him in a very low voice. "You probably can't hear what I'm saying but I've decided to give you a second chance. I'm sorry to tell you this now, maybe I should have called you back yesterday when you came to Hanna's place and none of this would have happened. I still love you Harold. No matter what, no matter how hard I try to hate you and forget you, you'll always have the biggest place in my heart"
I wipe the tear that is rolling down my cheek and slowly stroke the back of his hand.
I'm quickly interrupted by a nurse coming into the room
"Sorry, I have to give him his medicines and change the drips" she says with a very professional tone.
"Sure" I step back and after a last look at the guy who's owned my heart since I was sixteen, I leave the room and join the boys in the corridor.
"Charlotte !" Louis says behind me. I turn back to face him and he holds me a cup of coffee with a sad smile.
"Do you think he will get through this ?" I ask him
"I don't know... Maybe" he responds, not very convinced.
"Whatever happens, we need to keep it from the fans. They don't have to know about the accident, at least not now" Liam adds as he joins us, his eyes flushed.
"Yeah, sure" I agree bitting the inside of my cheek.
"Charlotte here you are !" Hanna shouts too loudly behind me and a nurse glares at her.
"Where have you been ?" I ask
"I've been looking for you all over the hospital. You ran away in the parking and ignored me when I called you, remember ?"
"Yes I'm sorry" I sigh
"Anyway how is he ?" She frowns.
"Actually I need to talk to all of you" a doctor interrupts us. We gather around him, worried.
"The condition of your friend is very critical. He's in a very deep coma and if he wakes up, which is not very likely, I'm sorry, there's 90% of chance that he will loose his memory." He tells us
"Loosing his memory ? All of his memory ?" Zayn asks
"We can't tell for now but it's very likely that he doesn't remember who you are or what happened these last few years"
"No... No ! No ! No !" Louis yells
Liam and Niall share a distressed look and I can see Zayn holding back his tears. Hanna puts her hand on my shoulder and squeezes it. I feel... Empty. What if he doesn't wake up ? What if he does loose his memory ? What about the band, the fans, the memories of these last six years, me, us ?
I need some air. I don't even know if I said it out loud or in my head. Probably out loud because I hear Hanna mumbling something like "I'm coming with you"
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"You should go home and get some rest" Zayn advises me.
"No it's ok, I wanna be here when he wakes up... If he wakes up" I say
"You've been here all day" he adds and I shrug.
Louis stands up and heads to the coffee machine while Niall and Liam are sleeping on their chair, when suddenly three nurses and a doctor rush to Harry's room.
"What's happening ?!" Louis snaps
I squeeze the sleepy lads's shoulder to wake them up and we all step closer to the room. The nurses are twisting and turning everywhere and the doctor is giving instructions. I can see by the frown on his face that's the situation is very bad.
I can't hear anything they're saying. My vision becomes blurred and the only thing that keeps my intention is the beep of the machine connected to Harry getting quicker and quicker, and him, laid down on his bed in his very deep sleep.
Suddenly the beep of the machine gets so fast that it seems that the sound is continuous. My heart starts to race. And then, nothing. The beep is gone. And so is Harry.
"Nooo !" I yell and rush to his bed.
I break down over his unmoving body and burst into tears. This can't be real. I can't loose him. He saved my life when I was sixteen and I couldn't even save his. I watched him slowly die in front of me.
"This is all your fault !" Niall blames me. I snap my head toward him and he repeats "It's all your fault ! You shouldn't have been so mean to him yesterday. You should have called him back when he came to your house ! He died because of you" he yells
"Yes you fucking killed him !" Zayn steps closer and points at me.
"No..." I whisper destabilised, my cheeks flooded from tears.
"No ! No ! No ! I didn't kill him ! He's not dead ! Harry wake up ! Wake up Harry !" I shout at the curly boy, shaking him.
"Charlotte ! Charlotte wake up !" Hanna shouts and I can feel her shaking me. I slowly open my eyes and see her sat on the edge of my bed with a worried expression. A dream, that was a dream. I sit up in my bed, sweating and sigh.
"You had a nightmare I think" she simply says with a smile
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