Eve's love

Seasons

" What I tell you about always putting fucking lotion on before you go to school...?" I couldn't even look at my mothers bruised, crusty face. " I can't find it in the bathroom mommy." "If i find the lotion in that bathroom there's gonna be more than ash on your behind!" I look over to the bathroom while she looks. There was so much of her dirty clothes on the floor you couldn't almost open up the door. "I guess yo ashy ass was right! I'll go to the store after you catch the bus just make sure you cover up ok damn you could at least try to hide the shit." "Mommy what happened to you are you sick?" "Can you mind your damn business please. You are a child you never get out of your place like that again or bust your lip. Now go catch the bus I love you." She hit my butt one good time ,and I went off to school. The crisp air made my lips feel like glass. I opened my book bag to find my tiny cup of Vaseline I bought from CVS with couch change. I heard the bus start to roar down the street and so I flew down the stairs with my open book bag down the street. I felt stuff fall out of my bag but knew if I missed the bus my mom would beat my head in. The bus driver saw me and stopped. By the time I got to my seat my lips were chapped even worse than before. My book bag was damn near empty. I turned in my seat so fast to see all my belongings in the road ready to get run over and the objects just got smaller as we got farther away. My homework from the other night was due that day and I was already at one point failing to dance in the wind. The walk of shame down the stairs gave me the heaviest feeling on my chest that I could never forget. The mocking sound of the bells rang through my ears. Life is so unknown and mysterious that the fact of me overthinking about it would be a waste of my energy but when I find the words that could give anyone that heavy chest feeling like the walk down the stairs I would because that is life. "Eve come here." Maya whispered "Yo I gotta go to class and give this bullcrap excuse to Mrs. Tea about how I lost my home work and have to hear about how I might fail the seventh grade. My mom is gonna beat breaks off my ass." Maya giggled. " Girl nobody did that damn homework I've been failing for a month now, don't even trip on it. She's gonna pass you, how about you don't even show up..... I was kissing all up in my care of yesterday after school and he gave me this.''She opened her hands and it was like four to five little grams of weed. I shook my head "Isn't kev like a sophomore ? What the hell are you doing with him? She laughed " What the hell that got to wit it? Anyways.. and justice and I are meeting up with kev, B man, and Steven at the park to smoke maybe get some food? Wanna come?" "I should slap you for call me chubby bunny." I glared at her then giggled. I pushed Maya then she grabbed my hand pulling me out of school. The warning bell rings, making me leave for school. I see justice standing all the way at the soft side smiling seeing Maya and I skip out of school . We made it to the stop sign and we both swung around the pole like imaginary strippers. We always tend to do that ever since we were little trouble makers. "Let's Go before we can call my mom and find out it's a wrap for my ass. We went around the corner to a park. " Who's car is that? "That's B man's car....I mean his mom's car he's driving it." Kevin and Steve had to go pick up the woods at the gas station across from the park. Let's go bitch! Maya pulled me by my belt loop. His car had patches where paint used to be. Inside smell like a garbage tin can spray with perfume from Ross. "Damn y'all really some thugs." B man giggled. We pulled up to the park. Which was secluded, it really wasn't a park it was really a place where people get high Or camp out when they're running from something. The grass is so high the people just let it grow out and abandon it. I licked my chapped lips and ignored a little voice of guilt and doubt that I skipped school at that age. It felt like I had the world in my pocket.

"What the fuck are you doing over here?"
" Don't seem too happy to see me." Dre leaned in to hug me real tight and pecked my lips softly. I punched his chest one good time for the long walk home and very uncomfortable night he gave to me. I ran to Dj and gave him a big hug I have a kiss him on the cheek " At least this nigga knows how to keep in touch." Dre you grabbed me from behind and push me to the backseat I laughed out loud drink on the back with me and Deejay just drove straight for a little while and parked into the secluded little parking lot. Dre held my hand in the back seat, Dj rolled a blunt. " So which one is going to tell me the whole story and which one is blunt going to me first. ''Before we started, this will stay in the car.... But it really all started when I popped up on big Mike one afternoon just trying to kick it with him. The moment I pulled up there something seemed off. So I put on my heat on my dashboard. I put it in my pocket when I got up at the door. It was already kind of like opening the door. The first to get her when I got in the crib was hearing huffing and puffing. Talk in my hand on my heart. I walked past one of the bedrooms and I saw Big Mike on the floor being violated by three dudes. I don't even want to explain the way I thought about that and I could really tell he signed up for that shit. I try to walk backwards but the floor creaked and one of the guys looked up fucking asshole right at me trying to pull out a gun but I already popped him in his head before he even lifted a finger. The two other dudes looked at each other and at me. They both hopped out the window like a Batman cartoon . Big Mike laid on the ground in a puddle of his own tears and fluids. He wanted me to kill him because eventually they'll come back with somebody different from him. He fucked it up real bad ,and that he has a child on the way no idea how he's gonna take care of it he hasn't even talk to his baby mother. He had no more money left, oh no place to stay. I never saw a nigga so weak in my life I left them there I'm just act like I never saw it. So those same guys that I saw all up in Big Mike trying to smash up my car so one of my homeboys saw where are you going and I followed them, finished them off myself and left town." My mouth was dry from it being open so long I have literally no words to say it's either of them other than.. " OK SPARK THE BLUNT!" They both laughed and the rotation began. "Not gonna lie to you I've been checking your phone that's how I found you that's why We are in Virginia with nothing to do, nowhere to go and money to spend. We weren't spending another moment without you though you're in the circle of our friendship. How about you go to my family house for Thanksgiving ? I'll just say you're stopping by because you have family down here too. I can't wait to go back home though I hated it here. It looks like I'm gonna be here a little bit more often." " Whatever happened to the two girls who used to hang out? Weren't they like your best friends? Dj asked and I shook my shoulders up and down as I didn't want to talk about it really because justice is pregnant and I don't wanna spread her business in who the hell knows what Maya is doing . I don't even know where Maya lives. She always came to us no matter where we were. Not gonna lie to you I saw Maya on Instagram at this club winning a twerk contest. I think she works there even though she's under age. " Honestly life switches so fast because you can easily get distracted by the beautiful seasons. I knew Maya and justice like the back of my hand. No one of them is literally going to be a mother and the other stripper of the month. " Send it to me now to talk to her when he talk to both of them we have a fucked paths right now. " But you're doing way better than Eve." My phone vibrated from the text message you sent me. Maya is really good at dancing shit never knew she really took it seriously. I sent her a quick text and proceeded to hit the blunt with the boys. With you for about an hour and a new drop me off back at the house I was feeling good until I noticed the front door was locked and I had to sneak back in. I had to climb the fence which triggered the backyard light alarm. My dad came out and let me in the house. " Girl, are you crazy? Almost lost her life. I would if I just threw a grenade in the backyard and just got blown up. Second of all, where the hell did you go?" I had a surprise text from one of my girlfriends there in town just like me with their family on Thanksgiving they also said they wanted to come by after Thanksgiving. I stopped by for some pie. Is that OK?" " You talking about those girls you used to run around with and get in trouble with. Are you still friends with them after all these years?" "Actually we stopped talking. I still keep in contact with one of you to find out she's pregnant... the friends I'm talking about are boys." "Azalea isn't gonna mind, I'll let your grandmother know so she won't act a damn fool." I gave him a big hug "I love you." I whispered before I ran up the stairs before he could even react. I hopped in my bed and checked my phone one last time and I got a reply back from Maya asking me to call her tomorrow afternoon. I close my eyes, I just let my mind wander. The sound of our childish giggles got louder in my head and I started to remember...
"Eve you're supposed to inhale it girl do it wrong one more time and imma smack you.''Maya yelled like an idiot. " Are my eyes red?" The guys just laughed at us. I bet you are raising hell. Steve giggled while hitting his bowl. "We do what the fuck we want because life too short right girls?" We both nodded our heads. The sky was completely clear when I was getting eaten up by bugs. "Ok y'all this getting boring I wanna do something fun." " How about you strip and jump into that lake over there? Without hesitation justice and Maya got completely naked sprinting towards the lake and jumped in. Me and the guys looked at each other and laughed. One of the guys passed me another blunt and helped me hit it right. And then mom and I realize it doesn't matter how fast or slow I take it, my heart is still beating in the bladder, still rushing to my veins. I need to take time to appreciate the wish so much in the world and so little time to appreciate it.
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This is for the unappreciated hard-working black woman no matter what size you are. This is for the women that have to tie aprons around their back every day during the week just to have money so they can feel what they're going through in the real world when it's really meaningless. This is for going through life so scared of change they watched half of their life go by and they still feel the same as when they were 16 years old. We deserve better and I'm not talking about a man giving us flowers or rubbing our feet we deserve to live through this life doing what we want to do achieving want what we want to achieve nothing getting in our way.If that flaw is from stress or not having a vehicle or my hair being too short ,fake,or dreaded. We can't have our past traumas define us. We can't have past traumas hang over us like an ornament. We are fierce. We have to let that shit go. We get to look at ourselves in the mirror not only when we're cute but when we're ugly ,overtired, and when we can't even bear to look at ourselves we still need to look. I know I'm not the best at what I do but I love what I do and that really makes up for it. This book will be done very soon so exercise those eyes. I have woken up and I like the word I'm looking at right now. Peace Love and tranquility to all and I hope y'all taken control of your fucking lives✨