No Campus Romance (COMPLETED)

NCR Chapter 31: Decisions and Sacrifices

NCR 31: Decisions and Sacrifices

I watched how the waves calmly crashed with each other, doing their own thing as if they rule the whole world. Dancing back and forth, having the power to soothe everyone's sadness just by looking at them.

I couldn't help but smile while trying to attract every positive vibe that I could get from the tranquil sea and bright sky. The laughter of the tourists was also contagious and I could feel how genuine they sound. I couldn't remember when was the last time I laughed like that. How I hope... I'll get to do it someday...

Nakangiti akong lumingon kay Sage na ngayo'y nasa tabi ko at nakaupo rin sa buhanginan. Mukhang nagitla siya sa bigla kong paglingon sa kanya. He weakly returned the smile at me. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang iniisip niya pero mukhang nag-aalala talaga siya. I feel like it's safe to assume that it's about me. But I also feel like there's something more.

"Thank you sa pagsama sa 'kin dito. Sana next time hindi na biglaan," buong puso kong pasasalamat at muling ibinalik ang mga mata sa alon.

"Salamat din sa pagsama," pagresponde niya sa mababang boses.

Nanatili muli ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin. As much as I want to break the silence, I just can't. I want him to start the conversation so I would know how to properly respond. Magulo rin ang isipan ko ngayon at baka hindi ko magawang iparating sa kanya ang mga gusto kong sabihin. Despite that, I'm still thankful to him. I really want to go somewhere far today and he granted me that.

"I've heard what happened to you... yesterday. Halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko... I really want to punch those guys on their ugly faces. Kahit sinong babae ay hindi deserve 'yon..." kalmado niyang sabi ngunit bakas sa tinig niya ang iritasyon at pangangamba.

Sa sinabi niyang iyon ay hindi ko magawang makaimik agad. Wala pang isang araw nang mangyari iyon at binabagabag pa rin ako nito. Hindi ko magawang magmukmok sa bagay na iyon dahil hanggang ngayon ay gulantang pa rin ako sa nangyayari sa 'kin. The panic attack happened last night was awful. My system probably got already tired of wasting my energy on dwelling into negative things. I've been in the dark side all my life. It's no wonder that I'm not having a hard time embracing every bad thing now.

"It's the worst. Like... kahit hanggang ngayon ay gulat pa rin ako. Pero hindi ko magawang makaramdam nang kahit anong matinding emosyon. I'm just tired... of everything," sabi ko at bahagyang pinaglaruan ang buhangin sa gilid.

"I'm sorry to hear that... Memoria. If there's anything I can do... just tell me right away. I'll try my best to do it for you," aniya sa nag-aalalang tinig. Naramdaman kong nakatingin siya sa 'kin kaya itinigil ko muna ang paglalaro sa buhangin at nilingon siyang muli.

Rinig na rinig ko ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Pakiramdam ko ay malapit nang mag-init ang mga pisngi ko. Pero kahit na ganoon ay nagagawa ko pa ring salubungin ang mga mala-pusa niyang mata. It's too intense and I couldn't even divert my focus. Looking at his eyes makes me calm. It's addicting as well...

I would never fool myself for something so obvious to me. I've been admiring Sage platonically. He looks good in any outfit, anytime, anywhere. His physical features are really attractive. He just looks perfect to me. And I admire his personality the most. I still don't know much about him but I'd love to if given a chance. However, my feelings for him now cannot be considered as something romantic. But I'm fully aware that it's not just a mere admiration. It's beyond that. I'm still confused about what I feel for him, but I know that I like him.

"You've done more than enough now, Sage. Marami ka nang naitulong sa 'kin... and your effort for bringing me here is really helpful. Kung wala lang siguro akong curfew ay gugustuhin kong magtagal dito. Ang bilis ng oras..." sambit ko habang nakatingin pa rin sa mga mata niya.