My Alpha

Chapter 5

Win's Pov

I sighed for nth time today. I am sitting in my office. Usually, I 100% dedicate myself into my work. But since that night one-week ago, I can't get my alpha out of my head. I can only imagine his beautiful face with soft gaze. He is nothing like any alpha I have encountered or I imagined. I regret not asking his name. Or I should have taken his photo and frame it on my bedside table. I shouldn't have judged him based on his work that soon. He did saved his first kiss for me. And it got to it's rightful owner. I traced my lips with my fingers. I could still feel his soft lips on mine. But, I greedily took his first kiss, and he doesn't know that kiss reached the deserved.

Also, I wonder what it could be he safeguard for his mate, that no one can snatch away forcefully. I am the right owner, so I have the right to be curious. Am I right?? Or does he have another mate, which is not me?? Is that why he can't recognize me?? Damn it.

He may be doing that job for some reasons. He is also waiting for his mate. May be his wolf didn't recognise me as his mate. Anyway he is not at fault and my anger got best into me and instead of making him familiarise to me, I have forced him into sex.  Shall I make him realise I am his mate?? Shall I tell him?? Then, he will be embarassed to face me after what happened. Also, may be he will reject me. Again, why am I scared of rejected by him?? It's he who should be scared. Since I already have someone to marry 3 months later, I have the reasons to reject him. I don't have to care about him. I should move on and focus on my fiancee Earth. Not on that alpha boy.

Earth has been checking on me every day. I have been ignoring him for one week. I should reply Earth. He may be worried. He says that he loves me every now and then. But I couldn't reciprocate his feelings verbally or emotionally. I didn't consider possibility of my future with him until now. May be I should consider a future with him, and spend time with and may be gradually I will learn to love him.

The thing is that, I said 'yes' to dad the next day of my one night stand with my alpha. I have no other way and I don't want that my mate in my life again. That's what I thought when I consented for the marriage.

"Win.... Win..."

Someone called me shaking my shoulder. It's Fong, my best friend cum secretary. I didn't tell him about my mate. I didn't tell anyone abouth that night. I just want to keep it as a secret. My own secret.

"What's wrong Fong??"

" it's me who should ask that. You have been zoning out for God knows how long. I have been calling you for 5minutes."

Fong ranted

"It's nothing"

I just shrugged it off.

"Are you okay?? You took 2 days leave this week" Fong has a concerned face.

He is speaking about the sick leave I took after that night. How can I?? I can't barely walk for two days. I shouldn't have gone that much.

" I am okay. I was just thinking about marriage and Earth"

It was partially correct.

"Oh, God, finally the great Metawin started thinking about marriage. Are you excited??"

He asked in a dramatic way. He is not at fault for this reaction. I didn't even mind  when people talk about marriage, and now I am thinking about my marriage is a great deal for anyone who knows me well. I am not excited about the marriage. I was just trying to deviate my mind from certain someone.

"who wouldn't be?? It's not I will be marrying every now and then."

I plastered my fakest smile on my face. I usually don't smile regularly and so, when I smile, others always think I am happy or excited. My defense mechanism to fake excitement.