Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)

Anorexic Fine

I'm not enough,

Ana says I'm fat,

I have to pay her to be pretty.

I have to pay her in food,

I have to pay her in my weight,

The less I have, the happier she is. 

I never knew she was just being greedy,

She wasn't helping me,

She was hurting me,

Just for her own benefit.

I will now forever be

In her debt,

Paying her for her greed.

What have I done

To my glorious self?

My bones are showing,

My mass is shrinking,

And I am disappearing.

I don't want to die,

I don't want to end,

But I must for Ana,

As she is my only friend.

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27/03/15