Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)

You don't care

I thought you cared,

Oh how wrong I was.

I thought you were my friend,

Oh how wrong I was.

I thought you'd help me,

Oh how wrong I was.

I thought you loved me,

On how wrong I was.

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I was dying,

Breathing hard,

Sitting down,

Fading out,

Slipping away,

And you said goodbye.

I thought you were my friend.

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Oh how wrong I was,

When I thought you'd stay with me,

And talk 'till all was good.

I can't forgive you.

You left me.

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Two years ago

When I met you,

I thought nil of you,

I glances and looked away.

You showed me

That you were more than that.

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You wrapped me around

Your dirty finger,

And twisted me real good.

I trusted you,

I would have given my life for you.

And I feel

Discarded.

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You threw me away,

Like a piece of trash,

And your silly little "bye".

Oh how wrong I was,

When I thought you could help.

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I know the truth now,

Aidun was right all along,

I don't need friends,

I don't need enemies,

I don't need humans,

Oh why do I always doubt him?

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I shall fade away,

Disappear from view,

Will that make you happy?

But you won't care.

Oh okay then,

I'll leave you to it.

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I protected you,

When people were rude to you,

I defended your back.

I spat at 'our' foes,

I yelled at them,

All those rude ones,

Who never gave you a chance.

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Now I know why,

They never liked you.

I can see now,

Why people leave you be.

And now I will leave,

You will be free,

Away from me,

And my suicidal thoughts.

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I'm sorry that I,

Was such a bother for you.

I didn't realise I was so bad,

You could have said.

But no,

You were twisted by your selfishness,

Bound by your thoughts,

Never gave a thought to me.

Never cared one bit.

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So bye my friends,

All of you,

I can't stay,

I'm stuck,

In an eddy of torture,

Never ending,

Twisting.

Goodbye

7/1/15