Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)

The thought of death

The thought of death,

So strong in my head,

All I want is to die.

How is that so hard?

I think of all the ways

That I could leave this world,

Yet none of them,

Have yet been attempted.

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I want to leave,

So badly I do.

But how, how, how,

Can I kill myself too?

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I think of jumps,

I think of knives,

I think of drowing,

I think of dives.

I think of starving,

I think of guns,

I think of trains,

I think if cars.

I think of many ways.

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But the one that I think of the most,

Involves a flying plane.

I'll have a parachute,

And jump from miles up high.

But I won't use this parachute,

I'll hit the ground full speed,

And when I hit the ground,

I'll hit it with all my force,

So that it knows I hate it so,

As I fade away!

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