Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)

Scared Sleep

I'm scared of falling asleep,

I feel the darkness

Start to swallow me

As soon as I close my eyes,

So they're wide open.

I roll over nervously,

Rustling my bed covers,

I'm blocking out all other sound,

A dangerous situation,

Will they catch me?

I feel their presence,

The monsters under the bed,

I can feel them nearing

With every whisper and whistle,

Am I dead yet?

My fear of sleeping,

Has kept me up all night,

It's bringing in paranoia,

People say I'm delusional,

But I say I'm not.

I can't go to sleep,

Not now, not ever, not while

There are things out there,

Waiting for me,

Waiting for my fear to give in.

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