TW//sensitive topic
Humahangulngol kaming dalawa ni August habang nag kukwento siya patungkol sa pinagdaanan niya. Nakaramdam ako ng matinding pagsisisi, I've been so self-centered that I never asked her about herself.
"S-Sinubukan ko naman sabihin kay M-Mama," she said between her sobs.
"P-Pero binantaan niya ako, na gagawin din niya 'yon sa mga kapatid ko kapag nagsalita ako," she confessed which had me shocked, that was cruel!
Kinikilabutan ako sa bawat detalyeng sinasabi niya, hindi ko alam na nangyayari rin iyon sa totoo at hindi lang sa mga dramang napapanuod sa TV tuwing hapon.
August was m*lested and used by her uncle. What's more alarming is that her Mom seems to not notice, it has been done multiple times already at nag bunga pa nga ito!
Sadly, she lost it. I don't know if I should feel relieved or what, not that I want the fetus to die, it's just that, we are too young!
"R-Red, ang dumi ko." patuloy na hangulngol ni August.
"Shh, no, no... that's not true okay?" I said, but for now I don't know if my words will convince her.
I am lost for words, I don't know the right thing to say and I can't say "it's okay" because clearly, it is not.
Gray bid his good bye nang tawagan na siya ng Mom niya, pero binilin niya naman na kung may kailangan kami ay tawagan lang siya. He's like two blocks away from my house.
It's almost evening nang kumalma siya, subalit nanatili pa rin siyang tulala. I'm still holding her hand, reassuring her that I am just here.
"August," marahan ko siyang tinawag.
She lifted her face and faced me, I smiled at her, "You know I live with my Dad, right? it might be uncomfortable for you--"
"I'm okay here," she cut me off, and sighed. "I should rather be thankful," sabi niya.
Nag punta na kami sa kwarto ko at hinandaan ko siya ng spare clothes dahil wala siyang dala.
It's night time and Dad arrived, "Red, may dala akong lenchon manok, kain tayo!" my Dad called.
I saw August flinched when my Das shouted, even though she said she's okay, alam kong hindi siya komportable. I can't blame her, kung sariling ka-pamilya nga niya ay nagawa siyang saktan.
"I'll be down first, dadalhan nalang kita ng pagkain," I said.
Umiling siya, "para naman akong others, baba nalang ako pag tapos ko mag half-bath," sabi niya at tinalikuran na ako.
I told my Dad a grasp about August's situation, he was shocked but also understand. Kahit pa concerned siya, tinanong niya rin kung na wala na bang ibang mapupuntahan si August bukod sa'min, it's because there is a possibility na pumunta ulit ang tito niya at iyon ang ikinakabahala ni Dad.
That night, August fell asleep fast while I was thinking what could happen to the next days.
I am only fourteen, why am I surrounded with adult problems? why does it have to be somebody close to me?
I may not say it but I am still hot healed from the old conflicts regarding our family.
My phone suddenly vibrated. It has a text message from...blue?
[What is it?] he asked in the text message. I didn't even tell him a thing, minsan naiisip ko na totoo na magka-dugtong ang damdamin ng mga kambal.
Blue is my twin brother, he's a little older for about an hour, to be specific.
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Taming Red
Romance[R-18 - written years ago, a draft that I decided to publish; bear with errors. xoxo] Red, named after a color they said, I say it's a symbol of war, like the chaos in my head. I always find my name boring, but I liked the fact that my Mom thought o...
