Almost Rejected | BXB

04 | Stupid - Hurt

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

I growled as I was woken up by what I'm starting to believe is my worst enemy. I tiredly wiped my eyes as I pressed snooze on my phone, smiling when I see the familiar photo of me and Ricky. It was sorta blurry because I had just jumped on Rickys' back when he took the photo, but I still loved it.

I stretched as I slowly made my way to my Omas' bedroom, knocking on the wood framing the arched entrance before letting myself in. "Morgen Oma (Morning Grandma!)" I greeted cheerfully, laughing when I got a questioning look in return.

"Warum fühlst du dich an einem frühen Montagmorgen so glücklich? (Why do you feel so happy on an early Monday morning?)" She questioned skeptically , cautiously eyeing me over like she couldn't believe it was actually me.

"Warum kann ich mich nicht einfach über meinen ersten Tag im Juniorjahr freuen? (Why can't I just be happy for my first day of Junior year?)"

"Technisch gesehen ist es Ihr zweiter erster Tag im Juniorjahr. (Technically, it's your second first day of Junior year.)" She corrected me with a grin as I rolled my eyes. Maybe we should fire Savannah, no but then I wouldn't have anyone paying my phone bills... "Du kannst Savannah nicht feuern, also hör auf, darüber nachzudenken. (You can't fire Savannah so stop thinking about it.)" I let out a small laugh as my Oma scolded me, she always knows what I'm thinking.

I heard the front door open just as I finished sitting Oma up, "Savannah? Is that you?" I called, leaning back on the short vanity stool I was sitting on.

"Yeah!" She called back. I waited, staring at the entrance to the bedroom until I saw her entering, "Morning puppy." She greeted, ruffling my hair as I stood up from the stool.

"Fuck off- OW!" I turned to my Oma as she pinched my forearm. "Schwöre nicht! (Don't swear!)" She scolded "Did you teach her English cuss words?!" I questioned, looking at Savannah with an accusing gaze.

Savannah giggled as she walked past me, "She probably taught herself." She replied before leaning down and giving Oma a soft kiss on the forehead, Savannah doesn't speak German so the kiss is her form of greeting to my Oma.

I rolled my eyes, not at all believing her words. "Whatever, I'm going to go get ready." I heard her giggle again as I left the room. I went into the bathroom and did my business before stopping in front of the mirror, taking my time to look at myself in the small square reflection. I wasn't that surprised when I noticed light rings underneath my eyes. After Ade met my Oma last night he decided we should also have a little talk of our own, and we did. At first I was scared of what the talk implied but all we spoke about was a few random things, I even got him to laugh a couple times and in the end we exchanged numbers.

The memory of the night before made me feel giddy and worried all at the same time. I was happy that even though we had a bad first meeting we were able to talk and have fun with each other but it concerned me how quickly his mood changed. "Maybe the bond became too much to ignore, do you think we'll mate now?" Leon questioned happily and I answered with a silent nod.

"Ah ah ah, where are you going?" Savannah questioned, peeking around the corner just as I was going to make my escape.

"School?" Savannah gave me a pointed look and I was quick to look away before turning back with a defeated sigh "My mates' driving me to school." I answered truthfully, rocking on my toes as I looked everywhere but at her. I hadn't told her I found my mate, usually she'd be the first person I'd tell anything to, besides Ricky, but I didn't know if I wanted her to know I was awaiting a delayed rejection.

"Mate???" She squealed, running up and picking me up into a tight bear hug "Why didn't you tell me you found your mate?!" She questioned as she gave me a hard punch on the shoulder, I sent her a glare as I rubbed my shoulder.

"I guess I didn't think it was important..." I mumbled. Savannah looked at me with squinted eyes and I quickly moved away. "Can we talk about this later, my ride's gonna be here any minute now." I said, itching for a way out of the incoming conversation.

"Fine." She said after a few seconds "I'll tell Ricky you won't be needing a ride."

"Don't bother, I told him last night." Savannah turned to me again, this time with an arched brow. "I-it doesn't really make sense for him to drive me to a school he doesn't even go to." Ricky is smart, really smart. So smart that no matter where he moves, he's immediately invited to the top boarding school in the district and next districts over. So in other words, me and Ricky haven't attended the same school since 7th grade.

Savannah sighed knowing I'm right and I bit my lip to try and hide the small triumphant grin from showing and earning me another shoulder punch "Okay then, have a good day at your-"

"Second first day of Junior year? I know. You guys need to get a new joke." I grumbled, smiling when she pulled me into a warm hug.

"I will when you make it to senior year." She replied, ruffling my newly made hair. "Fuck off." I whispered back as I struggled to push her off me, she chuckled before releasing me from her arms of death. "Bye puppy." She teased.

I flipped her off before heading towards the door again, looking back into the cabin as I opened the door, "Tschüss Oma! (Bye Grandma!)" I shouted, waiting till I heard her reply to finally exit and wait on the porch.

One of the many things me and Ade talked about was how I would be getting to and from school. At first I told him I had a ride, aka Ricky, and that even if I didn't I could just run in my wolf form there like I did the assembly day.

Spoiler alert, he did not like that plan at all.

Anyway, he agreed to drive me to school or at least make sure I had a ride in case he couldn't give it to me. I don't really like the idea of being stuck in a car with someone I don't know but he said Eze would always be there so I decided to just agree and not cause an unnecessary scene while my Oma was trying to sleep.

A few minutes pass and I finally see the familiar black SUV from yesterday, I watch as the large vehicle pulls to a stop in front of me before making my way around and getting in the passengers' seat. Once I was done buckling myself in and getting my bag settled by my feet, I turned to Ade with a small smile.

He was wearing a white thin collared shirt with a chest pocket and a black pair of ripped jeans that had patches on each rip, his dreads were put into a low and thick braid. His outfit was pretty simple and yet he still looked like the most attractive person alive. "Hey." I greeted, he sighed as he pulled the car to drive, giving a small 'hello' back before pulling off.

I stared at him a little while longer, confused on why he seemed to once again be in a bad mood. Maybe the lack of sleep from our late night talk was affecting his mood? I don't know. Even after the awkward greeting the ride still went smoothly as Eze filled the car with an unlimited amount of chatter, not seeming to mind my short replies, or in Ades' case, lack of replies.

I grabbed my bag off the floor as Ade pulled into the school parking lot, parking in the spot closest to schools' entrance. I opened the door as Eze hopped out, turning to grab her cheer stuff in the next seat over. "Are you Okay? I questioned as I turned my attention back to my mate, putting my hand on his only to get it shaken off.

I squinted my eyes in confusion as he turned to me with a cold glare, "Don't." He warned, his voice was harsh as he clenched his hand on the wheel. Though it was only one word it felt like a slap on the face, because it was yet another rejection given to me by my oh so generous mate. "Well, aren't you going to get out?" He questioned, breaking me out of my daze.

"But-" he cut me off with a growl before also getting cut off by Ezes' own growl, "Ade." I turned to see Eze staring at Ade with a hard glare, he glanced back towards her before letting out a quiet sigh.

"Go inside, he'll be there in a minute." She looked back and forth between the both of us, "Ade..." she repeated again, this time her voice sounded more strained, as if she were pleading with him.

"Dammit! I said go inside Eze!" he shouted, causing me to flinch at the sudden use of his alpha voice. I could see the shock in Ezes' eyes as she was forced to follow her alphas' command. She shook off the surprise as she made a sound of annoyance before looking at him with a nasty glare. "Moenie iets dom sê nie." she said before slamming the door.

He remained silent until he saw her make it to the sidewalk in front of the school, "Fuck." he cursed under his breath as he turned to face me. "I don't want you." he said after moments of silence, his voice was cold and sent a shiver down my spine. I stared at him wide eyed, my heart felt like it was breaking but I tried my best to ignore it as I gathered my voice to reply.

"Th-that wasn't what I asked about." I replied in a quiet voice, silently wincing at the shakiness of it. I won't cry, no matter what he says I refuse to cry. No matter how much the continuous rejections hurt.

"I'm only saying this to prevent you from getting hurt." he said and I scoffed as I rolled my eyes at the obvious lie.

"You're trying to prevent me from getting hurt, by hurting me?" I questioned in disbelief as tears started to stream down my cheeks, so much for not crying. My head ached as Leon started to whimper in my head, I tried my best to block it out but it didn't matter, he was feeling exactly what I was feeling, hurt.

"That's not my fault. You're the one who got your hopes up." he growled and I remained quiet, trying to force myself to breathe as my lungs squeezed in on themselves. My hands squeezed on my lap as he let out a short breathy laugh, "I mean c'mon Stefan... Did you really think just because we had one good conversation that I'd suddenly change my mind on not wanting you as my mate?" he questioned with a tone so cold I had to remind myself that he was in fact still my mate and not some random person.

"I mean are you some kind of idiot? It hasn't even been a day since I tried rejecting you." My bottom lip began to quiver as he continued his insults and I bit down on it, trying to stop myself from showing just how much his words were affecting me. "I'm never going to want you Stefan and some day I will reject you." I tasted blood as I bit down harder onto my lip and more tears began to stream down my cheeks.

"Mate... doesn't want us..." Leon whimpered, his voice felt so loud as I tried my hardest to block out him and his pain. The car became quiet as I felt the blood begin to slide over my lip, mixing with my tears as both liquids dripped down my chin and onto my tightly squeezed hands.

My head turned as I felt a tight grip on my chin, his hands moved from my chin to my lips as he tried to forcefully pull them apart, "Your lip is bleeding, stop biting it." He growled out, successfully getting me to let go of the hold I had on it. "What the hell is wrong with you?!" He questioned angrily and I laughed at how similar it sounded to concern.

My lip immediately healed seconds after I let it go but I still had a good amount in my mouth so I did what any angry person would do, I spit it on his shirt, his white shirt. He looked down at his shirt before looking back up with a glare that, in any other situation, would've had me begging for forgiveness.

I ignored his angry expression as I grabbed my bag and hopped out the car, "Fuck you, Ade." I spat, slamming the door behind me before walking away towards Eze who was still standing at the entrance of the school with a worried gaze.

"What happened?" She questioned, as soon as I was close enough to where my mess of a face could be seen. I swallowed the lump in my throat as I felt more tears starting to gather.

"I'm a fucking idiot." I said before walking into the nearest guys' restroom, I was surprised when I noticed Eze following me in. I looked at her through the mirror and that's all it took for me to completely break down, my shoulders roughly shook as I leaned over the dirty restroom sink. Covering my mouth so no noise could escape into the echoey air of the empty restroom.

"Stefan." She said, gaining my attention. "What did he do?" She asked again, taking slow cautious steps towards my hunched body.

"He's right... I got my hopes up." I mumbled, more to myself than to her but I know she heard " I knew... I knew he didn't want me and yet..." I trailed off as I felt the familiar closing of my lungs, I wish it could just stay like this. Just take my breath away and prevent me from ever having to feel like this again. "I'm an idiot."

"You're not the one who's an idiot." she said, rubbing my back as I continued my silent cry into the sink, "Hey, look at me." she said, raising me up by my shoulders so that our eyes were once again meeting through the mirror, "Take a deep breath, like this." As she said that she took in a bunch of air through her nose before letting it out her mouth, I rolled my eyes at the demonstration before trying my best to copy her despite the giant lump in my throat.

She continued taking breaths of air with me until I was able to breathe again, unfortunately. "Thanks" I gave her a half smile as I wiped my face with the back of my hand.

"No problem, you are my Luna after all. And technically my brother-in-law." She seemed confused at the last bit and I subtly rolled my eyes at the insinuation before letting out a small laugh.

I followed her out the restroom and down the hall till we got to a split where we would have to go different ways. I looked at Eze as I noticed her staring at me with a worried expression, "You're gonna be okay right?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine." I replied, giving her my best impression of a real smile. She hesitated for a little before saying 'okay' and walking away. As I began to head in the other direction the sad voice of my wolf popped in my head.

"We're never going to be okay until our mate accepts us..." he whined, his voice no longer so loud and now just a quiet murmur.

"I know."