Our Secret

Apologies

Disclaimer: I don't own dune

Y/n's POV:

We kissed casually as we changed enjoying the sight of each other making every sensation last. We shared one last lingering kiss before he got up to let the others in. 

"Sooo, How was your day?" asked Duncan as Paul returned to bed and wrapped his arms around me. 

"Do you want something or did you just come to kill the mood" I joked pulling a face at Duncan and snuggling closer to Paul who, almost as if on impulse, bent down to gently kiss my head. 

Camilla smiled at us, and Duncan gently kissed the side of her neck making me grin to, "You two can't talk" I teased

"Whatever" laughed Camilla. Then her face became more serious "Beth wants to talk to you, she says it's important"

I was careful not to let my emotion show on my face. The only person who would ever know the full extent of my new found fear of her would be Paul. He squeezed me and I looked up at him tears forming a sheen across my eyes. "You don't have to..." he began 

"Yes I do"I said steadying myself and raising my chin and staring defiantly at nothing in particular. 

"Okay, She'll be here in about half an hour then" said Camilla giving me a reassuring smile before asking timidly "so what was it that she actually did to you"

I swallowed slightly before answering "She threw that glass at me and it shattered, that's where most of my cuts are from and she threw water over me and I was so cold and she kept back some of my food. I know I sound pathetic but..."

"NO!" said Paul so loudly It caused Both Camilla and Duncan to jump slightly "You are not pathetic you are never pathetic do you understand. You are amazing. You are so strong and so brave, never, and I mean never put yourself down like that I mean for fuck's sake you still can't walk properly." he ranted. For a second I was shocked and then I began to smile, leaning back into him to quieten him I began to laugh. 

"What's so funny?" asked Duncan 

"N-N-Nothing" I gasped through the laughter "It's just that I was thinking" and once again I broke down into hysterical giggles "Thinking that its strange to be shouted at for being good" at this Camilla snorted too clearly remembering the numerous times I had been yelled at over the years. 

Paul chuckled slightly too kissing my cheek and whispering in my ear " Your mental you know that right?"

"Yep" I replied popping the P.

We spent the next few minuets just chatting Mia and Ben showed up to give us what Mia declared a bumpdate in which she ranted about morning sickness and cravings ,snapping at Ben when he mentioned mood swings and showing us her belly which was just about beginning to round as she was coming up to two months and had been in a couple of days ago for her first scan. We continued to fuss over her and the worry about Beth's Visit set in the back of my mind until Mary dashed in claiming that Beth had just got of duty and would be up in a few minuets. 

The dread that I had been pushing away settled back in my stomach and I glanced up at Paul and he gently stroked my hair soothing me. "Be nice" I warned him but my voice shook slightly. 

"For how long?" he asked an undertone of anger playing through his voice. 

Mary came to stand next to the bed and Paul swung his legs over the side of the bed so that he was sitting watching the door but still holding my hand. I sat up as high as I could In bed Camilla, Mia an Ben stood on the side of the bed opposite Paul and Mary and Duncan stood near the door ready to open it when Beth knocked. 

"You guys are amazing!" I said, they gave me comforting smiles then all of our heads snapped up once again facing the door. Someone had knocked on the other side. 

Duncan opened the door and Beth stepped in not quite carrying herself in the bratty way that she used to. "Um, Mr Paul, I'm really sorry..." she whispered

"Why are you apologizing to me, I'm not the one you completely fucked over" He said at her anger searing all of his words.

"Does 'be nice' mean something different to you" I asked incredulously and he settled slightly still giving Beth evils. 

"Um, Mia, congrats on the baby..." continued Beth only to be interrupted again.

Ben glared at Beth as Mia said in a wooden tone "Why are you here if your just going to ignore her?"

Beth glanced at where I was sitting on the bed making eye contact for a second before looking away. "I messed up okay, are you happy now is the burdening army gonna put down their guard so that I don't feel like I'm about to be attacked?"

"What do you want us to do?" asked Mary Giving Beth a look of upmost contempt.

"I DON'T KNOW, okay, I don't know. I am really really sorry Y/n I should never have done what I did, it was inexcusable" She said but something in her apology didn't add up. 

I scrunched up my face and then said "Those aren't your words, their Matrons. She told you to apologize didn't she, your not hear because you feel guilty your hear because you don't want to loose your place in this household. Your still just working for yourself"

"So, I apologized didn't I,"

"I DON'T CARE," I yelled mustering up energy that I didn't even know I had "What would it have taken for you to regret?"

"I do regret it, I feel terrible that I hurt you but your not staff anymore, I have to use Matrons words cause I'm not one of your friends an because of you my job is in jeopardy so sorry if my apology came with a grain of salt" She said

"What do you mean I'm not staff anymore?" I asked 

"Your dating Paul Atreides, you don't need to work anymore."

"firstly I'm engaged and secondly, I'm never stopping doing jobs even if I don't sleep downstairs otherwise I'll be as useless as this one" I chuckled shoving Paul slightly with my shoulder causing him to pout in mock offence. I laughed and kissed him gently quickly pulling away and causing him to pout more. I bopped his nose and leaned into him.

"How did I not see that" asked Beth

"Yep, we all thought that" whispered Duncan "Once you know it seems obvious."

Beth sat down and joined us for a few more minuets before returning to work. "You still hate her don't you?" said Paul

"Course she's a complete bitch" Replied Mia, Mary, Camilla and I in perfect sync before bursting out laughing. "But life's no fun if you had no one to Piss off!"