Your Icy Exterior

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*Lexa POV*
I woke up with a pounding headache. I sat up and groaned. I dont remember much from last night.

"Hey take it easy" a voice said.

I perked up. Y/n. Its y/n.

I quickly opened my eyes. I couldn't help but my face fall when I was met with brown eyes instead of grey ones.

Anya sat down infront of me.

"You thought it was her didn't you?" Anya questioned. A sad expression on her face.

I nodded and looked down.
I really thought it was you that kept me from running to the mountain, but it was Anya.

I felt her hand on my knee.
"I'm sorry, I could see how much you cared for her, but sometimes the battles we face are more than just what we see on the surface. I'm sure she had her reasons" Anya said quietly. But I didn't miss the small tear run down her face.

I knew anya had grown to admire the sarcastic girl.

For a while we just sat there together on silence before people began entering the tent.

"Hey we all need to talk about y/n" the blond said.

My relationship with Clarke is complicated. Yes we kissed in my tent. But I really don't think it will be anything farther than that. She is a good freind still.

They all took a seat around me.
By they I mean Clarke, raven, jasper, monty, Octavia, and Bellamy.

"So what is it?" Octavia asked.

"Well we just thought we needed to share something with you all about y/n" Jasper said quietly. He took a glance at Monty.
Monty nodded.

"Alright what about her? You still haven't told us how you knew her, or why you cared so much about her after only knowing her for her time in the mountain" Clarke said.

Monty sighed.
"We didn't just meet her in the mountain Clarke. We met her before, we all did years ago" he said looking at the ground.

"What do you mean" Bellamy asked.

I was quite confused as well.

"Octavia what were you saying the first day you met y/n. That she reminded you of someone. That it couldn't be a coincidence" Jasper said.

Octavia nodded
"Ya I remember but wha..."
She had a look of realization on her face.
"Because... because that was y/n, our y/n. Omg". She said quietly.

"What do you mean our y/n?"Clarke said.

"Oh come on Clarke you know what I mean. Y/n, y/n y/l. Our best freind from the ark. The one that was sent down to earth by herself" Octavia said.

Clarke looked shocked.
"God why did I never see it" Clarke shook her head. Her head in her hands.

"Why... why didn't she ever tell us" Bellamy said quietly.

Monty hesitated before continuing.

"She... she heard you guys talking about her the day you guys met. How you all thought she was a monster. She thought it was better you never found out. Then be confronted with all of your hatred." Monty said still looking down.

I saw tears well up in everyone's eyes. Including my own.

Roan and ontari then entered the tent.

Clarke wiped her tears.

"Hey... uh Monty said you guys wanted to talk?" Ontari said.

I couldn't help feel a strange emotion well up inside of me whenever I saw the girl. I saw how close her and y/n. How familiar there touches were with each other. I would never admit it. But I was jealous of the relationship they had.

"Ya, sit down." Jasper said.

"We were just discussing y/n. Did she ever tell you guys were she was from" Jasper asked.

Ontari and Roan shared a look before sitting down.

"Yes we know where she truly came from. And her relationships with all of you. That she came from the ark" ontari said looking at everyone, seemingly taking in there reaction.

I couldn't help but feel my heart tighten. I wish y/n had felt comfortable enough to share that information with me.  But instead she lied. I understand. But it still hurts.

"Did she ever tell you why she got locked up? Because we were never quite sure" Monty asked.

Roan nodded.
"Ya. She said that her father trained her. Trained her to be a soldier. To use swords, knives, bows, hand to hand combat. He would have her fight the guards to practice. One day one of the guards tried to touch y/n. So y/n broke his face. When y/n father found out he got angry and killed the guard. Y/n was blamed for his death and the assault. The sexual assault wasn't even taken into consideration." Roan said looking down. I could of sworn I saw a tear run down his cheek but he turned his head quickly.

They all nodded. They looked sickened by this news. I couldn't help but feel my heart tighten further.
This girl went through so much. She didn't deserve this. I only wish I was able to tell her that. Make her know that.

"What... what about her time in ice Nation. Obviously a lot happened there" raven asked caefeully.

I saw Roan and ontari stiffen.

"I'm not sure you would want to know the events that took place" Roan said looking down at his hands.

"Roan. Tell us. Please." I said quietly.

I needed to know. I wasn't sure why. But i did.

"When y/n crashed in azgeda she was immediately brought to the capital. The queen tested her, put her in the fighting pits. Her first fight she was put against three fighters by herself. Walked out with a few scratches. Even shit talked the queen to her face. Even after being slapped in the face a few times." Everyone chuckled at that.
"After her fight Nia began what she called training. Y/n was tortured everyday. I won't go into to much detail on that. She screamed until she couldn't anymore. Which is why her voice is scratching and deep like I'm sure you've noticed. That continued for a few months untill one day she just stopped making noise. No emotion on her face when she took the beatings. Almost like she was dead to the world. I can't even count how many times I have seen in my dreams. Nia sent her on missions. Continued to train her, made her an assasin. Ontari and I tried to keep her away from the darkness, that seemed to consume her. Then we were called here". He said quietly.

"Nia had inflicted so much damage to her that after about a year, she couldn't even remember your guys name. I remember walk into her room one night to see her sitting on the floor. Just staring at the wall.
And all she said was 'I can't remember, why can't I remember'. I didn't really know what she ment till we came here" ontari said.

At this point we all had tears dripping down are faces
But no one even seemed to care.

Y/n was gone, and we all wanted her back.

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