its been 5 months and i actually forgot about this but my friend came up to me at lunch and said she binge read the whole thing last night and told me to update so here i am
hi chloe, thanks for reminding me to do this
and hi char, thanks for reassuring me that i should do this
and hi everyone else whom i love dearly and have missed <3
ummmm ok whats new with me
oh i failed my drivers permit test lmao
i dyed my hair a really deep black
im OBSESSED with kuromi
i started liking someone whos a year older than me who also ults nct and the boyz but im 1000000% sure they dont like me which im coming to terms with
it hurts because ive liked them more than anyone else in my entire high school experience so yeah
our concert band concert was cancelled
OH I CAN GO ON A WHOLE RANT ABOUT THAT
so my concert band has about 60 people and we all wear special instrument masks and socially distance ourselves to keep things as safe as possible and weve had almost no covid cases the entire year
BUT
all the sports kids have no restrictions, dont wear masks, literally wrestle each other and people from other schools, most of them are unvaccinated, and break pretty much every guideline set in place
but our school is refusing to cancel any sports activities or even postpone them
and about a fourth of our school was out with covid last week so they had to cancel something so instead of getting rid of the actual problem they cancelled the band concert and all club activities
and band kids just accepted it, including myself, because id much rather protect our school than put them at risk, no matter how hard weve all been working for the past few months
but the SECOND any band kid mentions the fact that were making the sacrifice for the sports kids or says that sports are dangerous rn they go OFF on us and say we dont appreciate them its so annoying yOURE LITERALLY RISKING EVERYONES HEALTH FOR A 40 MINUTE BASKETBALL GAME MEANWHILE THE MUSIC KIDS GAVE UP THEIR MONTHS OF WORK TO PROTECT PEOPLE STFU
i guess thats how the world works though, you can cut as much of the arts as you wish but the second a football game is postponed even an hour parents will threaten to sue or whatever they do
ok what else
my step mother got arrested but id rather not talk about that
i got straight As last semester so my gpa was a 4.17 :)
OH I WATCHED GIRLS PLANET 999 AND I WAS OBSESSED AND I LOVE KEP1ER NOW
my top picks were jia, suyeon, shana, kotone, hikaru, chaehyun, ruiqi, and ruan but obviously only hikaru and chaehyun made it and i was SO proud of chaehyun for winning the whole thing
my birthday is in less than a month so thats exciting ig
im in my schools pit orchestra (we play live music for the musical) and this years show is legally blonde and i think its homophobic that theres no flute part in "gay or european" tHAT WAS MY TIME TO FUCKING SHINE
im going to an eric nam concert in like a week and conan gray in april ahhhh
titanic and all the twilight movies went off netflix which makes me mad because titanic is one of my all time favorite movies and twilight are SO SO SO fun to make fun of when youre sad
my insomnia has gotten so severe to the point that im sleeping an average of 2 hours a night and before people talk about their bad sleep schedules to invalidate mine, please undertsand that i have a real medical CONDITION, MY SLEEP SCHEDULE IS VERY MUCH OUT OF MY CONTROL
i dont care if you sleep 1 hour a night if youre choosing to
i know that sounds mean but im so tried of people invalidating my insomnia with "oH i sTaY uP unTiL 3 Am wAtChInG yoUtUbE sO yOu cAnT coMplAiN" yes i can.. thats your choice, i respect it, but we are not the same
on this topic
i was diagnosed with social anxiety a longgggggg time ago
recently i got diagnosed with AVPD (avoidant personality disorder)
yeah its really hard but what else
oh who remembers a few months ago when i was ranting about an annoying know it all from one of my classes???
yeah were actually really close friends now
im sure my irl friends reading this know who she is but yeah
im in my platonic enemies to lovers era now
i cant think of anything else rn, ill update again when i can remember more
someone keep count of how many days it takes me to update again lmao
and PLEASE comment to remind me to keep using this, i like talking to yall and i do want to keep using this
until then, i leave you with this
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