January 23rd 2022, 11:44 p.m
I love this boy mane.
Like I literally- I love him so much. I know this whole book is basically just to rant ab him no matter good or bad, but he really does have my heart.
I sit and thank The Most High for putting him in my life because I've grown so much because of him. I dont get tired of telling him how much I love him, how much he means to me.
I wrote him a whole little paragraph before I tried to go to sleep, and even have an alarm set so I cant write him another one before he goes to school 😭.
No one can say I don't love him with all my heart. I wanna tell his fuckin mom how much I love her son and how much he means to me.
I'm upset with myself that I got mad at him and didnt speak and even hung up :/ cs now I miss him so damn bad.
I wish he was in my bed right next to me, cuddling each other and saying how much we love each other.
Is there a stronger word than love? Because I say it so much and so often that it feels as if its not even strong enough to explain how I feel.
Sorry for being such a damn lovesick ass negro I js-
Idk.
I love you Shamar :)
...i miss you at night.
~J
