✔ || Love Me at Your Own Risk (Single Ladies Collaboration Series #2)

XIX

Chapter 19

Habang nakaharap sa salamin, hindi ko maiwasang isipin ang mga kwento sa akin ni Mireya. She said that when they're still together, Alexander was a manipulative fvckboy and psychopath. Magkaibigan lang daw sila dati, at hindi raw ganoon si Alexander noon. Nagbago na lang daw ito bigla, at naging ibang tao.

Kaya kailangan ko raw na pag-isipan ang pinasok ko. At kung may pagkakataon pa raw akong tumakas, dapat umalis na ako agad bago pa ako tuluyang magapos sa impyerno.

But, how? I'm already wearing this wedding dress, and after a few hours I'm already his wife.

My eyes went down to see my whole body. As Alexander said, he took care of everything. Even from the smallest details of the wedding up to the big one.

As my surprised, I'm impressed with this wedding dress I'm wearing. He reached my expectation.

I turned around when I heard a series of knock outside. I let her or him in. I expect someone from our wedding staff, but it was Kuya Dione, who is now wearing his tuxedo.

“Nica, are you ready?” he smiled and walk towards me.

I look at him like I was needed some help. Hindi ko alam kung itutuloy ko pa ba ito, o kakalimutan na lang lahat ang mga narinig ko kay Mireya.

I don't know.

Kuya Dione hold my hand and look at me in the eye. “Are you scared?”

I nodded. “I don't know what will going to happen pagkatapos nito. Natatakot ako, Kuya Dione. Hindi ko kaya na mawala si Mommy.”

I can't tell him everything, especially the stories I've got from his ex. They'll just worry about me, and I don't want that to happen.

“Shhh...” Kuya shake his head like he was telling me to stop thinking too much. “Walang mangyayari kay Mommy, okay?” He added and pat my head. “And please, tell me kung may kailangan ka. I won't hesitate to help you. You know how much I love you, right?”

I just smiled and nodded. Hindi na ako nakapagsalita at sumama na lang sa kan'ya palabas ng kwarto.

Nandoon na raw lahat sa simbahan, kami na lang ni Kuya Dione ang naiwan at ilang staff na kinuha ni Alexander. May videographer din kasi at kung ano pa na hindi ko na pinapakialaman. Wala naman talaga akong interes sa kasal na 'to, napilitan lang ako dahil kay Mommy.

Inalalayan ako ni Kuya Dione na makababa ng hagdan bago ako kinuhaan ng ilang mga litrato. I just forced a smile in front of them para hindi halata na kinakabahan at natatakot na talaga ako.

Si Kuya Dione ang nag-drive ng wedding car na sinasakyan ko. Mabuti na lang talaga at siya ang naiwan kasama ko, dahil kung hindi baka hindi rin nabawasan kahit konti ang nararamdaman ko.

I took a deep breathe before I glance outside. We're now in front of the church, which is the last place I will stand as a single.

Noon, akala ko magiging single na lang ako habang buhay. Sa dinami-dami ng lalaking pinalagpas ko, doon din pala ako sa taong hindi ko rin gusto babagsak. Sabagay, wala rin naman akong nagustuhan sa kanilang lahat.

Hindi rin naman kasi nagparamdam iyong nag-iisang tao na gusto ko. Nawala na lang siya nang parang bula, at bumalik kung kelan huli na ang lahat.

Habang naglalakad sa aisle kasama si Kuya Dione, hindi ko mapigilang mapatingin sa mga tao. I admit, I'm still hoping to see him right now.

I don't know why I expect him to be here, but I really want to see him before I tie myself to someone I don't love.

I want to see him one last time before I say those two words to someone I don't care about.