F1 One shots

Anger ~ Max Verstappen

Max Pov
"Well, maybe I don't want you to be with me!" I knew I had messed up when I saw the tears in her eyes. I knew I had to do something about my anger, but sometimes I just snap. "I'm so sorry love..." I tried taking her hand but she moved away from me, not saying a word. She walked out of the room and locked herself in our bedroom. I could hear her slide down the door as I did the same. We sat there in silence for almost an hour. I tried speaking to her again. "Baby... please open up. I didn't mean it." Tears were rolling down my cheeks.

I heard her sob from the other side. I hurt myself by hurting her. I slowly stood up making my way to the kitchen. I made a plate of food and put it in front of her door. "I made you some food. I'll go away now." My voice was shaking as i walked outside. I looked up at the stars, but eventually got in my car. I decided to go to a support group. I walked in and people were sitting in a circle. I joined them and soon the 'meeting ' started.

"Uhm, hi. I'm Max. I've got anger issues." They all greeted me and everyone talked about their problems. They started giving me and each other advice. Mostly, people tell me to 'just calm down'. But it's not that easy, god I wish it was. With the advice I went back home, stopping at MacDonalds on the way. I got a share box of nuggets and 2 milkshakes. My trainer won't like it, but sometimes these things are necessary. I opened the front door walking in as she sat on the couch. I sat next to her leaving some space. "I brought you MacDonalds."

I handed her the bag as she looked up at me with teary eyes. "Do you really not want to be with me anymore?" Her voice was soft and fragile. "I didn't mean it love... I swear. I didn't mean to snap at you. I love you like crazy..." she looked up at me with red eyes. "You need to stop doing this. I c-can't handle another one of you fallouts. I've had enough. You make me feel unwanted and I h-hate that. I want the boy back, who made me feel special and loved. And until you find him, I really can't do this anymore." She started sobbing and I started crying. I get what she was saying.

"I don't want to break up. Please, I can't get through this without you." I begged but her sobs only became louder. "I just really, really need a break, I don't want to leave you either, but you can't do this to me anymore. I need to take some time for myself and even though it hurts both of us, you know deep down it's best for us." I nodded not being able to hold in my cries anymore. We hugged and she started packing a bag. She would stay with some family for a while, while I work out my anger problems. Like she said, we both needed some time.

The first 2 days I had to restrain myself, from calling or texting her. On the 4th day, I started at an anger management program. Even though the therapy made me evenmore angry, I kept in mind that I was doing this for her. After almost a month of being apart, I was sitting on the couch. I heard a knock on the door and opened it. She was standing there with a smile as I teared up. "Max." Then she dropped her bags and jumped in my arms hugging me. I put my face in her neck and cried. I missed her more then anything. "Pl-please don't leave me again." I sobbed as she cupped my cheeks.

"I won't. I love you too much." She softly made our lips touch. The kiss was full of love. When we pulled away we rested our foreheads together, but eventually sat down on the couch. "So how have you been?" I looked down still feeling horrible about the fact that I treated her so bad, that she had to leave. "I've been okay. I went to some family and just rested. It was nice." She sounded so happy. "I-I've been going to therapy... it's been pretty hard and sometimes it makes me very upset. When I came home, it got me even more upset, cause I knew you wouldn't be there to comfort me. And that's on me. I feel so horrible for hurting you so much." And once again the tears welled up in my eyes.

She stayed silent for a while, but eventually lifted my chin up. I looked in her eyes. "I am so proud of you Max. You did hurt me, yes. But if I at least see you try, I forgive you. It's okay if you lose control every once in a while, but you haVe to try and control it." Her look was serious, yet full of love. I nodded my head. "I'll try my hardest. Would you ever... maybe consider .. t-taking me back?" The thing about her, is that she still  makes me nervous. She smiled up at me. "I was still yours all this time, I just we t away for a while, just like you go away for races. And I still am yours. You are still my baby boy and I love you endlessly. But, you may take me out if that makes you feel better."

"Really? We're still... us?" I smiled looking up. "Yeah, we're still us Max. Let's not mess it up this time okay, sweetie?" Her hands rested on my cheek as i slowly nodded. "Okay. I love you." I pressed a soft kiss against her lips. "Yeah. I love you too." With that moment, it felt like finally everything was fixed. I still had anger attacks sometimes, but I would do my best to control it. She stayed with me, when I went to therapy and was always there. And now I get to see her walk down the isle.

And o my, does she look beautiful.