Longing for Love

XII-REALIZATION

IRENE'S POV

Im so worried right now hindi ko aakalain na aabot sa ganto ang lahat. Para akong sirang plaka na nag aatras abante. Kanina pa kami naghihintay sa doctor na lumabas.

"Irene maupo ka nga kumalma ka. Nahahawa ako sayo eh." Pagtawag ni Ate Imee kaya naupo ako sa tabi nya. "Kinakabahan ka 'no?" tanong nya. Aba loko ito ah, sino ba namang nanay ang Hindi kakabahan knowing na nasa panganib ang anak nya. "Ahhm. No, I'm fine" I simply replied

She hitted me using her shoulder and said "Eh ano 'yan? Nako Irene lokohin mo na ang iba pero wag ako. I know you too well." She mumbled pointing my ears.

Namumula kasi ang ears ko pag kinakabahan or galit eh. I chuckled "Oo na, ikaw na. Ang dami mong alam ha." I replied as the door swung wide open revealing the doctor.

Sabay sabay kaming tumayo at lumapit. Hindi na ako makahinga sa sobrang kaba, I my heart is skipping every beat with the nervousness I'm feeling... "Doc hows my daughter? Is she okay?" I asked nervously. I can't lose you Olivia.

The doctor showed a big smile before speaking. Maam your daughter is awake. It's a miracle that after the seizure her consciousness is back". she stated which lifted a heavy burden on me... "But I'm so devastated to see that one of her senses isn't responding. The head trauma cause that much to the point that she lost her sight." She explained Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako or malulungkot baa ko sa mga sinasabi ng doctor.

Is this my punishment for me to learn my lesson? "Doc do you mean temporarily blind?". Ate Imee asked worriedly. I heard the doctor sigh before answering "Maam to tell you frankly ang sitwasyon po ni Ms. Araneta ay malala, please don't get your hopes up..But we'll still conduct test po for us to be sure."

"What on earth do you mean? My daughter would be blind forever?". I exclaimed which the doctor nodded. "What?!! Is there a way to gain her sight again?" I asked worriedly. "Yes maam. An eye transplant.But it will cost you much." She explained...

Hindi nya ba kami kilala? Im a businesswoman and I can surrender everything just to give Livy a good life. "Then do an eye transplant. I don't care if it will cost us billions. Just do the procedure." Ate Imee uttered sternly.

"Maam masyado pa pong tortured ang katawan ng bata. We need to wait few more months or maybe years. For her to adjust para din naman po yan sa kapakanan ng bata. Atsaka as long as walang donor or walang mahanap na compatible eyes for your daughter Hindi parin po masasagawa ang operasyon. Mas mainam po na while she's recovering naghahanap na po tayo ng possible donor sa bata that's all po. Pwede nyo na pong silipin ang pasyente sa loob.. Excuse me po." She said and walked out.

"What??So Livy needs to be blind for years pa? Hindi pwede 'yan." I exclaimed showing my frustration. "Irene the doctor is right. Baka kasi pag pinag sabay sabay mo baka Hindi kayanin ni Livy.. I know your daughter is brave pero iba na pag ang katawan na ang sumuko.." I heard Liza spoke up.

"I agree. Irene patience is a virtue. Just one at a time matatapos rin tayo" Ate Imee said and rubbed my back in a very comforting way. I can't help but to blame myself for all the wrong I've done. Siguro if Hindi ako naging malupit sana kasama ko si Livy ngayon at sana masaya kami ngayon. I was blinded with pain and anger... Ate Imee tapped my shoulders.

"Hoy relax lang hindi ka naman iiwanan ni Livy. Masyado kang mahal ng anak mo. Stop worrying na, okay?? do you want to see your daughter inside?" she asked.

How caring and loving Ate she is. I nodded and walked in. Nabago ang hospital dress at matress nya. Nagbleeding siguro sya kanina nung nag seizure sya. Natutulog ba sya? Or pinipikit nya lang ang mga mata nya? I came closer to see her angelic face. Shes undeniably gorgeous. Ako ang nanay pero mas kamukha pa ni Ate Imee. Nako nako. I caressed her face kaya gumalaw sya.

"Uhmmm... yingggg" she mumbled. I curve immediately appeared on my lips. "Shhhh. Don't worry. Mommy is here na okay? Everything will be fine." I said sweetly, assuming that she would react happily. But instead of smiling she tried her best to move her face away from me...

I bowed my head as I step back with disappointment... Napansin siguro ni Ate Imee kaya she mouthed "It's fine. Don't worry." I smiled... "M-mama" mahinang sambit ni Livy. Kaya agad na lumapit si Ate Imee at Liza sa kanya. Hindi ko maiwasang mainggit to think na sila pa ang unang hinanap kesa sakin.

"Kasalanan mo din naman 'yan Irene kung Hindi ka nagpabulag sa galit at sakit 'di sana close kayo ng anak mo" saad ko sa sarili ko.

"Yes Ate Livy? What do you need? May masakit sayo?" Ate Imee asked . . . . "Or do you want something to eat?" tanong naman ni Liza. Mabagal pero pinipilit ni Livy na idilat ang kanyang mata. She reached for Ate Imee's hand and smiled afterwards... She took a deep breathe upon closing her eyes...

"Ate Livy I have a good news for you. Your Mommy is here, do you want to talk with her?" I heard Ate Imee asking Livy. Hindi man lang sya nag respond "Ahh okay bukas nalang siguro, baka pagod ka lang" Ate Imee said. Her words tore me up again. Sarili kong anak ayaw ako kausapin, masakit. Oo naman masakit pero I think this is my consequences for all the things that I've done.

I was totally blinded na kahit si Greggy ay madali akong iniwan. Pinanganak ba ako para iwanan lang? Una si Daddy,sumunod si Oying, Hindi pa nakuntento sumunod si Greggy. And I only have Livy.

She's the one who never got tired of understanding me and loving me, she stayed with me amidst of my cruelty. I'm a monster Mom.~

Binalewala ko ang kahalagahan ng anak ko. Tama ngang nasa huli ang pagsisisi. You get to realize the bad things that you've done pag nagbunga na. I hope its not too late pa para bumawi sa anak ko. I hope that she would accept me without any remaining doubts.

Its hard for her, and I know that it would take me a long time to gain her trust again. But I am always willing to wait... Kasabay ng pagsara ng mata ko ay ang pagbagsak ng mga luha na kanina ko pa pinipigilan.... I am beyond bless to have a daughter like her...

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End of the chapter.

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