Longing for Love

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IRENES POV

Medjo na-disappoint ako sa sarili ko dahil umasa akong siya ang sisipot tinanong ko rin ang full name ng engineer at sabi lamang ni Tina ay si Engr. Via A.. dali dali naman siyang nagpaalam matapos nyang mag present, akala ko assistant talaga siya, turns out shes the Arki natawa pa ako kasi sabi nya sideline nya daw yung pagiging assistant nya kay Via.

Tinapik ni Greggy ang balikat ko we are on our way home "Kanina ka pa tulala, are you even listening?" he asked me while focusing his sight on the road. About Greggy? inurong ko yung annulment for Livy , yes umaasa parin akong babalik siya, alam kong hindi nya kami kayang baliwalain, I will wait for her until my last breathe... but sticking with Greggy is not only for Livy, but for me also kahit hindi nya man sabihin alam ko at nararamdaman kong mahal nya ko, mahal ko din si Greggy higit pa sa buhay ko.

 "Ahh oo naman im fine, paki bilisan nalang hon sure akong naghihintay na si Celine sa atin". Oh Celine! i forgot to tell,our 5 years old baby, after Livy left it leave a void in my heart and hindi ko alam kung paano ako magsisimula ulit, lalo na yung hindi na namin siya ma contact. I undergone a lot of counselling session and even therapy para matulongan akong maka cope up. It was Ate Imee who suggested na why not try adoption. And thats how we had Celine, the moment my eyes land on her my eyes twinkled, mapupungay na mata matangos na ilong mapupulang labi at maputing balat, para siyang Anghel. 

Gusto kong isunod kay Livy ang pangalan nya pero tutol si Greggy hindi daw makabubuti para sa akin. Celine Amaris heavenly given by god. suits perfectly. andami ko ng hanash papasok na pala kami sa gate hindi ko na namalayan HAHAHAHA! pagkatapos mag park ni Greggy ay agad na akong bumaba. "Celineeee! Nanay is hereee!" sigaw ni Soling 

"Nanayyyy!!! look I got a star. I got a star" she shouted as she ran into my direction and welcomed me with a warm hug. "Let me see! Wow ang galing ng baby ko! Hindi ka ba naging pasaway kay Yaying Soling??" I asked as I break our hug and sniffed her hair. 

"no, i didnt! I am good girl kaya,I helped her water the plants!" she boastfully uttered. her voice is so so cute... "Here comes the great Tatayyyy!" i heard Greggy behind.  "Tatayyyy!!! i got a star, look ohh! very good po ako" she smiled. kinarga siya ni Greggy at pumasok kami sa loob. 

"Lemme smell your kilikili! hmmm so asimmm!" sabi ni Greggy at kiniliti si Celine her giggle swipes my stress away. "Tatayyyy hihihihi stop tickling mee, im turning r-reddd" she giggled.   Napakasarap pakinggan ang hagikhik ng dalawa. "Nanay, youre so tahimik.. kargaaa" paglalambing nya. pinasa siya ni Greggy sa akin. 

She stared at me and smiled genuinely "Nanay you look so exhausted, dahil sakin kasi 'to eh" she said and pouted. I smiled "Hindi naman ako napapagod sayo anak. Never mapapagod si Nanay para sa'yo" I spoked. Bumaba siya at hinila ako patungo sa couch "Nanay sit down I will be back in a minute" nagtataka ako sa batang ito ano na namang pakulo ang gagawin nito, nakangiti lang si Greggy habang tinitingnan kami.

I saw Celine together with her Yaying carrying orange juice. she smiled and carefully handed me the glass bumalik rin siya at kinuha ang picture ng Ate niya... "Here you go, diba Nanay you want orange juice and sabi mo po na you feel so relax whenever you stare at Ate Livys picture? sit nanay and i will give you a massage" she said. I dont know where she learned all of this, I cant imagine a 5 years old girl will say all of this. 

"What about Tatay?" Greggy acted as if nagseselos nya, she giggled "Tayyyy, si Nanay munaaa, next time na nalang" she said and hugged Greggys leg. Tears started to flow the moment she started to massage my back.

"UH-OH did i press wrong muscle po?" she asked worriedly she faced me and flash a very sad face. "Ahh nono baby, nanay actually loved it Baby, naalala ko lang si Ate Livy mo. she used to massage me before.." I stated 

"Naynay? when will Ate Livy make uwi? I'm so excited to play with her with my doll house! I will also show her the santan flower that we planted, and make a lot of accesories!" daldal nya. I smiled, soon Celine magiging buo din tayo, hindi ako papayag na maging ganito tayo habang buhay.

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"Nakakalunod naman " rinig kong sambit ni Greggy sa likod ko, andito ako sa pool nag mumuni-muni, tumabi siya sa akin at inakbayan ako. "Iniisip ko, siguro kong nandito siya meron na siguro tayong apo sa kanya" saad ko. 

I heard him chuckled "Parang antanda na talaga natin ah" natawa ako, narealize ko ill be turning 57 this year and greggy and Greggy will be 64. "Kidding aside, siguro kung buhay si Oying at nandito si Livy marami na tayong mga bata dito na naglalaro sa sala at siguro nagkakarga na tayo ng babies! atsaka magiging maingay na itong bahay natin" humiga siya sa legs ko at tinanaw ang kalawakan. 

"Nanayyyy, karga po pleaseee" pagmamakaawa ni Celine... "Go to Tatay, baby" sagot ko.

"Ihhhh pleasee??" pamimilit nya... "Pagbigyan mo na, maaga pa yan bukas sa monthly check up nya" . Greggy butted in. I heaved a deep sigh at kinarga ko siya. She smiled "I love you Naynay and Tatay, forever in my heart" as she leaned her head and fell asleep.

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end of chapter.. super sabaw hurhurhur sorry mga beh