Longing for Love

XXV- HER VISIT

Irene's POV

Sawi akong umalis ng bahay. "Shit!!!" I hissed as I forgot to bring my specs with me. I focused my sight on the street as I drive for myself. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ako dadalhin ng diwa ko.

I stopped over a flower shop and bought and bunch of flowers being put together in a very cute small basket.
I missed my little cupcake. I also dropped by in a small pastry shop and bought my favorite cake.

I sigh as I enter the car and drove as fast as I can. Not so long I arrived on a cemetery.. I immediately found her grave since nasa museum naman ito.
Inilapag ko ang bulaklak at cake..

Halos magdabog ako dahil nakalimutan ko na namang bumili ng kandidato
"Oh god! I forgot to buy candles". I said in frustration
"Hey! It's mommy how are you?" I said and touched her grave-stone.
"I m-missed you so much my little kiddo!"..I asked once again and sat on a vacant bench.

"Today is mother's day, aren't you gonna greet mommy?" I kept on talking as if sasagot sya at naririnig nya ako..
"Only daddy is here for me. I mean I know nandyan pa KAYO pero I'm longing for your presence, anak..." I said with my voice cracking.

I felt a tremendous hunger that's why I decided to open the box and ate the cake. "Are you gonna eat this cake with, Mommy?" I asked once again. Kahit wala syang sagot ay ngumiti ako at kinain ang cake..

Tears started to escape from my eyes.
"Can you ask God for me?".. I said and stopped eating the cake kasi nahihirapan akong lumunok dahil sa pag-iyak ko.
"Please tell him, if he can bring back Livy to me? I.... I m-missed her so s-o m-much" I said panting I can't see properly because of the tears blocking my sight...

My chest started to get heavy. At ng makaramdam ako ng hilo ay agad akong napakapit sa puntod nya. At umupo ng dahan dahan. Patuloy lang ang pag-iyak ko hanggang sa mapaos na ako at Wala na akong boses na maisigaw..

"Ehemmm, do you mind if we celebrate mothers day with you?" I heard a very familiar voice from my back. I didn't hesitated to turn my head. And to my surprise I saw my 6 nephews together with their family...

Greggy appeared from my sight carrying a bouquet of my favorite flowers...
The Manotoc boys brought chocolates while SanSiVin brought drinks

Ate Imee was  carrying the "banig" and Liza is carrying a bunch of fruits. Is this a picnic?. Bongets and Kuya Tommy being the oldies is holding guitar and ukelele. Is this a picnic? I asked my mind once again.

Greggy come near and helped me stood up.. "Happy mothers day, Irene" he said ang gave me a smack kiss and handed the bouquet.
"Sus, eextra na naman" I heard Ate Imee whispered but loud enough for us to hear..

"Uy dad oh! May nagseselos sa gedLi!" Sabat ni Borgy.
"Echoserang frog!! Kunwari wala narinig nila Borgy kagabi!" Dagdag pa ni Mike at itinulak ng bahagya si Ate Imee binatukan nya si Mike dahilan ng pagtawa naming lahat..

Inilatag namin ang banig at nilapag ang mga pagkaing dala nila..
"Hi Oying! Sorry hindi kami masyadong nakaka-bisata ah? Babawi kami soon. Basta wag mo lang kaming multohin" makulit na sabi ni Borgy.

"Cheeee!!! Hingateng hingante takot Kay Oying!!!" Sabat ni Sandro habang kumakain ng orange.
"Actually nasi-sense ko sya na nasa tabi mo Sandeng" Sabi ni Ate ng may pagbabanta kaya agad na napatalon si Sandro sa takot.

"Ahhh!! Ohmygod!!!" He shouted and lumipat ng pwesto. Ang kukulit talaga niton mga pamangkin ko!.. naalala ko laging biktima si Livy sa pang-aasar ng mga Kuya nya..

Naalala ko pa nung sinend nila Sandro ang picture ni Livy na natutulog habang naglalaway sa GC namin. As far as I can remember ginawa nila yung pang blackmail para ilibre sila ni Livy... Pero after silang ilibre at sinend parin nila. I can imagine Livy's red face! HAHAHAHAH.

Simon and Vinny started strumming the instruments and started singing. Hindi familiar ang kanta pero bagong composition ata nila..
Binigyan ako ni Greggy ng water at ngumiti Saka bumalik sa pagkain..

Linapitan ako ni Ate Imee at inabot ang cellphone nya.
"Facetime with Aimee. Tulog daw si Livy, baka gusto ko syang makita or may gusto kang sabihin. Go na" she whispered and tapped my shoulders.

"Boysss stop na muna.... Facetime with Tita Aimee, baka gusto nyong makita pinsan nyo." pagsasaway ni Liza..
Tumawag ako at sumagot nalang Ng mabilis si Aimee... Nakangiti syang bumungad samen dala ang maliit na bento cake.

"Happy mother's day!" She said almost whispering ayaw nya daw magsalita ng malakas baka magising si Livy...
We smiled and said 'thank you'...
"Aims may I see Livy?" Bongets asked.
"Yeah sure, wait" she said and flipped the camera. There I saw my beautiful lady sleeping soundly...

Ang ganda nya talaga, kahit hindi ako ang kamukha nya pero maganda sya.
Aimee walk closer to get a better view.
I felt a sting when I realized she's not wearing the locket that I gave her..

"Aimee pwede mo bang ilapit ang phone mo sa kanya? Gusto ko lang syang bulungan" I requested. Everyone around my flashed a worried look but I gave them an assuring smile.

"H-hi Livy ko. It's Mommy" I started with voice cracking. Mugtong mugto na ang mata ko kakaiyak... Lumipat ng pwesto si Greggy at hinagod ang likod ko para tumahan ako.

"I miss you so so so much, A-nak ko. Bumalik kana kay Mommy please?..  I promise not to hurt you anymore" I said and sniffled. Greggy wiped my tears while the other people here are holding back their tears too..

"Livy ko, wag mo na akong parusahan... Hindi na kaya ni Mommy pero, hihintayin parin kita kahit na gaano ka tagal.... Kasi g-ganun Kita kamahal... Hinding hindi papayag si M-mommy na may manakit sayo ulit." I said and smiled bitterly..

"A-alam mo ba? Nandito kami sa puntod ni Oying, hinahanap ka nya kasi ikaw lang ang kulang. Patuloy kitang hihintaying umuwi sa bisig ko. Ganoon kita kamahal.  Pagkat hindi tuluyang magiging masaya ang pamilya kung mawawala pa saakin ang bunso kong anak...".. I said and burst into tears inilayo ko ang cellphone at ibinigay kay Ate Liza...

Durog na durog na ang puso ko. Niyakap ako ni Greggy at doon ako humagolhul ng todo... Everyone was speechless and teary eyed. If only they know what's happening on me, and how does it feel being disowned by my own daughter...

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Livy's POV

"Pagkat hindi tuluyang magiging masaya ang pamilya kung mawawala pa saakin ang bunso kong anak..." she said from the other line before Tita Aimee distance the phone from me. I've heard it all, and I can still her sobbing...

I heard the door shut and binuksan ko ng slight and I can feel Tita Aimee wasn't in the room na. Kaya I immediately get up and sat..

I massaged my head.. Naguguluhan na ako, masyado ba talagang masama ang ginawa ko? I started questioning myself as tears started to flow down to my cheeks.. I can't deny the fact that I was hurt from what she said..

"No, Livy she deserves it. Kulang pa yan sa lahat ng ginawa nya sayo" says my mind. Does she really mean those words she said earlier??. Pero bakit parang napipilitan lang sya? Bakit parang Hindi ko madama Ang sincerity sa boses nya?

"YOU'RE just being numb and blank, Olivia" says my mind again hindi ko na alam ano ang totoo at hindi..
"Kasalanan mo 'to, Ireneeeee!!!" I screamed as tears of anger vigorously flowed on my cheeks.

"Kung hindi dahil sayo! Edi Sana... s-sana nakakakita parin ako ngayon!!! H-hindi nyo alam kung gaano kasakit ang ginawa nyo saakin!!!!" I shouted I can't control my anger anymore.

"Livyy! What happened?" Tita Aimee entered the room feeling so worried..
"T-tita, ayoko na sa buhay ko. Why do I have to face this?? I don't deserve this eh!!! All I did is to be a good daughter and good pamangkin and a good apo... Wala akong ginawang masama, gusto ko lang naman ng attention at pagmamahal... Bakit kailangan mangyari saken 'to? I don't deserve this!!!" I shouted and throwed everything I can touch...

"Shhh, ate Livy calm down okay??" She said as she hug me so tight so that I can't move.. bigla akong nanghina at napasandal sa balikat nya..

"Tita masakit parin, sobrang sakit dito oh. Na kahit anong gawin kong pag unawa hindi parin sya nawawala. Napapagod na ako dito Tita" I said.

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End of chapter. Oh sabaw ulit BWHAAHAHAHAAHH kakahiya