Longing for Love

XVI- CUTTING TIES

Livy's POV

Hindi ko alam kung nasaan na kami but one thing I'm sure is that mahigit kumulang kalahating araw na kaming nandito sa plane... I want to know kung gaano kaganda ang clouds. Gusto Kong magtake ng pictures at gusto ko rin magtake ng documentary. A life in a plane ganun.

Lintek nga naman. Makaka-isip na nga lang ng ganitong plano nagkataon pang bulag ako... "Tita? Can I have a meal po? Kanina pa po kasi ako gutom eh.." I said sweetly... "Okay just wait ha? I'll tell the cabin crew lang" she said. Hindi ko man Makita pero alam kong nakangiti sya..

Sa lahat ng tao kay Tita Aimee lang ako hindi galit. I don't know too. Ang gaan eh,siguro because hindi sya nagdalawang isip na pumanig sa akin..

"Here you go,kid." I heard someone spoke up out of the blue. Kinabahan ako  pashneya.. si Tita Aimee lang pala.
"Come on say ahh" she said.

"Wait,Tita am I facing you ba?" I asked and giggled.
"Namiss ko 'yan" she said bitterly. Jusko ses ano na naman???
"Po? What do you mean po?" I asked confusingly and chuckle
"That! Yung genuine mo na tawa. It sounds like music into my ears Ate Livy. I hope I can still hear more".. she said and sniffled. Is she crying? That can't be! Tita Aimee is hard as rock.

"Ohhhh, hopefully Tita... Come on I'm so hungry na po eh" I said. Pero timing namang nag announce ng take off yung flight attendant.. "You want to finish this here?. Or after take off nalang. Kaya pa?"she asked. I smiled and nodded.

"Welcome to the Los Angeles International Airport. Sorry about the bumpy landing.

It's not the captain's fault. It's not the co-pilot's fault. It's the Asphalt.

Please remain seated until the plane is parked at the gate. At no time in history has a passenger beaten a plane to the gate. So please don't even try.

Also, please be careful opening the overhead bins because...."shift does happen". We heard the announcement.

We both laugh, Loka Loka tong FA na ito. Pero totoo naman HAHAHAH.
We were guided by cabin crews since I am a disabled person... Buti nalang they prioritize people like me. Kasi baka masapak din to ni Tita HAHAHAAHAHHA...

"Hello, hello,hello California. It's nice to breathe your air again huh" I uttered..
"Kid, let's go, I'm hungry as well. I might collapse here. Mahirap na" she chortled thats why I chuckled slightly... Napapadalas ata Ang tawa ko dito ah masama yan pre..

Tita Aimee held my hand as we walk slowly palabas ng airport... It was an exhausting flight,yet nakakagaan....
We waited a little para sa sundo namin.
Medyo matagalan kaya pati spinal cord ko nanginig na sa sobrang gutom..
Tita Aimee handed me a bottle. Hindi ko alam kung ano to. Pero I'm pretty sure na naiinom toh... Nilagok ko ito Kasi gutom na ako mga ses. Feel ko umiikot na Ang world.. Its a soy milk pala,masarap naman.

"Uhmm tita? Is it okay if I leave my things here? As in lahat po. Yung suot ko nalang po Ang matitira saken" I asked hoping that she would agree..
She cleared her throat before answering.
"Ehemm, kid may I know the reason? I mean sayang naman. Some of your things is from your Mommy and Mama" she said... And tucked some hairs behind my ears.What a sweet human being..

"That's the reason nga po eh. I want to throw and neglect these things, for me to finally eliminate them in my life... I mean it would be easy for me to make usad Diba??" I explained..

I am really making my words true. Hindi ako yung tao na puro pangako at sumpa pero hindi naman pala tutupadin... I already gave them chance pero sinayang nila. Sorry not SORRY.

Ako naman muna. Sarili ko naman muna ang uunahin ko. I don't care if anong isipin nila.
She heaved a deep sigh in defeat.
"Okay if that satisfies your peace and happiness I'll go for it." She said.
A small curve immediately formed in my face. "Thank you Tita! You're the best.." I exclaimed and was about to hug her pero Hindi ko sya makapa kaya wag nalang...

I need to be brave and be independent amidst of my situation. Wala akong ibang aasahan... Kundi ang sarili ko.

"Livy let's go na... Our sundo is here na" she uttered...
"Tita, Olivia not Livy... Matagal na pong patay si Livy.. I am Olivia okay???" I said and stood up. Hindi na umimik si Tita Aimee. At hinawakan nya ang kamay ko para alalayan sumakay sa van..

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Irene's POV

I can't breathe properly as I enter the car. Hindi ko mahanap ang mga salita dahil sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko. Pati paglunok ng laway ay Hindi ko magawa. Silent cries turned into little soft sob...

I saw Greggy walking to enter the car. He is wearing that very sad and awful face... He entered the car and released a deep and heavy sigh..
"We are blinded by anger Greggy, we just lost our daughter... I feel so guilty"... I uttered... He leaned forward and putted his point finger on my lips..
"Shhhh.. stop crying I'm always here. Come closer" he said. Lumapit ako ng konti and he wrapped me with his broad and masculine arms

I don't know but I felt something inside me burst like a fire the moment he hugged me... This can't be!!! I felt him kissed my hair before letting me go..
He smiled weakly as our eyes met.. Damn this man so handsome... He wiped my tears using his thumb. Before sitting properly..

"Do you want to eat first before going home?" He asked. I sniffled and said.
"Mr. Araneta kindly take me home, I want to rest because this is byfar the most exhausting day of my life." As I glued my eyes on the road trying my very best not to stare him...
"Umiiral na nman Ang pride mo Irene" Sabi ng utak ko..

Masakit sa loob, Hindi ko kayang pigilan Ang luha ko, kaya patuloy ako humahagulgul habang nasa byahe kami. Wala akong pake Kung maingay ako...
Hindi masyadong traffic kaya madali kaming nakarating sa bahay...

Agad akong lumabas at Hindi man lang nagpasalamat kay Greggy. Kahit man nahihilo na Ako ay nakayanan ko pa ring tumungo sa kwarto ni Livy... Dun ako ibinuhos ang sakit.. Isinigaw ko lahat hanggang sa mapaos ako...

Nanginginig Ang kamay ko habang tumutungo sa closet ni Livy para kumuha ng isang damit nya at yinakap at hinalikan ito...  Too late Irene, too late... Kumapit ako sa desk nya dahil sa hilo na nararamdaman ko. Nasabay Yung sakit ng ulo ko sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko...

Hinawakan ko ang gamit nya at umiyak ng napakalakas ng marealize ko kung gaano kasipag ang anak ko... Binuksan ko Ang drawers nya at dun tumambad ang sarili nyang medicinal kits..

"Ganito kana ba ka irresponsible,Irene?" I  asked myself.. Hindi ko na alam kung kailan ko huling nayakap si Livy. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko sya huling naalagaan. Hindi ko na alam at Hindi ko na kilala ang anak ko...

Sitting curled like a ball hugging my Livy's clothes as I sob and cried my heart out. What have you done Irene!!!

I stood up as I felt an urge to throw up.
I think my stomach is upset today.. I walk to the kitchen and lost my balance. My saviour, my knight and shining armor...  Nasalo ako ni Greggy bago paman ako matumba Ang mawalan ng malay

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End of chapter.
Walang iiyak for today's bidjo.

I'm so sorry for the super late ud. Last day pa Sana ito pero apakadami Kong gawain 😭. Bat Kasi ng STEM ako kainis. Anyways thank you for the overflowing support. I love y'all