Longing for Love

XV- GOODBYE PILIPINAS

Livy's POV

Today is the day that me and Tita Aimee will finally leave Philippines to have a new life in Cali. I'll be staying there for good. If may reason pa na umuwi ako then why not?

Ang hirap pala maging bulag ano? I mean literal na bulag... Dati Kasi bulag lang ako sa pagtatrato sakin ni Irene eh. Tingnan mo nga naman ngayon literal na bulag na talaga. Hanep!

I felt someone tapped my shoulders. Si Tita Aimee pala "You ready kid?" She asked. "I was born ready, Tita" I said laughingly.

"Buo na ba talaga ang decision mo? I mean your Mom is mag-isa nalang, Hindi ka ba nanghihinayang?" She asked once again. Paulit ulit nakakainis.

"Tita just tell me you don't want me to go with you. You've been asking the same question for one whole fucking week. And my answer is still the same.
WALA AKONG NANAY!" I said irritatedly  putting emphasis word by word..

I heard her released a sigh.. kung makakakita lang ako. Ako na Ang lumipad papuntang Cali.

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Irene's POV

Leaning on the table, drinking alcohol crying... That's my daily routine for the past 3 days... I need to accept the fact that I won't be able to see my daughter anymore...

I stood up and face a huge mirror. Puffy eyes with black spots, messy hair, and dark oily face. I AM SO WASTED.

Ilang araw na akong walang matinong kain. Pinagbakasyon ko muna ang mga house helpers. So basically I'm all alone. Walang andito para damayan ako. Now I know how does it feel. Parang nabaligtad yung situation. Ako naman ang nag-lolong ng attention ni Livy. At sya naman ang walang pake. Nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Ngayon Irene magdusa ka..

I went to my room and close the door shut. I dropped my body tiredly and tried sleeping pero hindi ko magawa.  I gaze on my phone and a text message showed up.It's from Ate Imee

Ate Imee:

Irene! Asan ka na ba nilagay ni lord? Ngayon Ang flight ni Livy! Wala ka bang balak yakapin ang anak mo bago sya umalis?"

A tear fell. Talagang buo na ang decision nya. Wala na akong magagawa. Hindi nalang ako pupunta she'll probably not gonna look for me...

I just hope na suot nya ang locket na bigay ko.. Tamad akong pumasok sa banyo at dun ibinuhos ang lahat ng luha na pinipigilan kong kumawala sa mata ko... Kasabay ng pagbagsak ng luha ko ay ang pagpatak ng tubig na nagmumula sa shower

Walang pagdadalawang isip na umupo ako sa sahig habang sinisisi sa sarili ko ang lahat ng nangyari... Maybe I was meant for this. Iniwan na ako ng lahat. Then what's the purpose of my life?

My sight was blurry because of my tears and because of the water that's running down to my face but I can still sight  a blade on my peripheral vision. Without any fear I immediately got the blade and was ready to cut my own wrist. When someone showed, kinuha nya Ang blade na hawak ko at itinapon.. He immediately hugged me with his masculine arms. Who the hell is this?

"Shhh it's fine. I'm here. I won't leave you" he whispered and kissed my hair. I have always known his baritone voice that soothes my ears. It's him, Greggy.

With all the force I have I tried to push him. But he's much stronger than me. Instead he hugged me tightly.. Mas lalong lumakas Ang pag-iyak ko sa ginawa nya.. pinag-hahampas ko sya pinag-sasampal pero tanging ngiti lamang ang isinusukli nya...

"Irene I know madami akong kasalanan sa'yo. But always know that even if hindi na tayo nakatali sa isat isa andito parin ako. Lagi akong nandito para sayo Irene. Hinding hindi na kita iiwan" he said smoothly. All I can hear is the sincerity and pureness in his voice.

Natahimik ako. Tiningnan ko sya sa mata. At binigyan nya ako ng matamis na ngiti.. he helped me stood up and cleaned myself. He even helped me dress up... Pagkatapos kong maging tao ulit tinanong nya ako kung kakain ba daw ako.. but I refuse.

"I wanna hug our daughter before she leave, Greggy" malamig kong sabi. I didn't wait for his response. Tumayo ako  para kunin ang susi. Pero naunahan nya ako.

"I'll wait you sa car" he said calmly... I heave a deep sigh... I won't let this day pass without getting any forgiveness from Livy..

I walked downstairs at hindi ko mapigilang hindi tanawin ang family portrait na nakasabit sa wall..
"One day, magiging kumpleto rin tayo" sabi ko isip ko bago ako tuluyang bumaba at sumakay sa kotse...
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13 missed calls. Coming from the same person.  Ate Imee is keep on calling me. Habang kami ni Greggy ay naiipit parin sa traffic...

"Damn!!!" Hasik ni Greggy sabay hampas sa manibela sa inis. Angtagal umusad ng traffic... His face turned dark.. "kumapit ka dyan.. at wag kanang magsalita" he muttered...

And here's Greggy the reckless driver.!! Walang pakandungan na pinihit ni Greggy ang manibela at walang paki sa mga enforcers na naka abang... Diretso lang Ang takbo nya hanggang marating namin ang airport. Hindi ko na sya hinintay at tumakbo pa ako papunta sa holding area pero nakasalubong ko na sila Ate Imee...

They looked so devastated. Am I late?
"Where have you been?" Ate Imee asked worriedly... "Just so you know, your daughter just muttered a curse. Before she left" Mama Meldy informed me.. Ha? Anong ibig nilang sabihin..

"Isinusumpa ko. Hinding hindi sya magiging masaya sa buhay nya hanggat wala syang kapatawaran na nakukuha galing sa akin. And to hell with that forgiveness I won't give it to anyone....  That's the exact word,Irene" Liza said mimicking Livy's voice..

"But Tita before eh even said those curse, she waited for you. She keeps on asking if andito ka na ba. Livy just gave you a chance but seems like you don't want to take it." It was Sandro.

"Ang arte rin kasi ng Gaga. Pwede namang pag usapan ng maayos. May pa eksena pang nalalaman jusko dai!" Sabat ni Michael..

"She didn't even let us hug nor kiss her. She waited for you. Just for you , Irene." I heard Bonget and disappoinment is vivid in his voice.

Nakakapanghina,nakakawalang gana... Wala na talaga akong pag-asa... Isang malaki at mabigat na buntong hininga ang inilabas ko. Bago tumalikod at napag isip na pumunta sa Bangui Windmill... I need fresh air to breathe.

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Livy's POV

Crying, resting my head in the window pane. Tunay ngang wala syang paki-alam sa akin. I gave you the chance Mommy pero sinayang mo lang... Wala na akong magagawa...

"Tita is the plane working na?" I asked Tita Aimee habang kinakapa ang kamay nya... Kinuha nya ang kamay ko at hinawakan ng pagkahigpit.

"Yes Livy. Please stop crying. Tita Aimee is always here for you. Go sleep na matagal pa ang byahe." She answered sweetly.

This will me the last time that I'll cry for you IRENE.I close my eyes and drift off to sleep..

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End of chapter...

Hello my floaties!!! Sorry for the delay! I love you all. Thank you for the support. Maybe may collaboration na magaganap here. So you might as well read my friends story entitled "Inconnue" by troubleshark. Yun lang tapos na