The Road to Paradise

last words

do you love me?
say you love me.
I wish he'd say he loved me.
leave me alone.
call me,
but don't text me,
I need to hear the buzzing sound
because I lost my phone.
poking holes into my presentation,
you're really ruining my destination,
location's off,
but they can still find me.

love me-
say you love me!
once,
for old times sake-
if we were old.
if we were old we might be super fat,
with diabetes,
and gluten allergies,
and we'd have to take five or six medications a day,
on top of all the ones we already take,
to ease the pain,
of our body's decay.

say you love me
again in my mind.
the scenario rewinds all over again,
at this point I don't know
where it ends or begins,
I just know that I want to stay here forever.
kiss me one more time,
in a daydream
while it lasts
until my phone rings,
and I realize it's my alarm,
telling me to wake up.

I love you,
and the story never ends.
carved a pumpkin,
now it's christmas,
and we're eating candy hearts.
the first time I saw you I knew,
I was doomed from the start.

love me for today,
don't forget me tomorrow.
I work long hours,
except when I don't.
I have a blank face and I stare at walls,
except when I don't.
I laugh and I'm playful,
I'm full of life,
except when I'm not.
read me the lines of your very first words,
and your last words-
if you have the time.

love me for a moment-
just a moment.
do you have any regrets?
do you ever wish your time was better spent
on making better wishes,
or being more athletic,
or being neater,
or smarter,
or wealthier,
or skinnier,
or muscular,
or killing your deadbeat father...
people will always tell you there was something else you could've been doing.
but there's not enough money to spend on that much time,
so
it's not your fault-
fuck them anyways.

so do you love me?
say you love me,
just for a second,
just long enough
for me to use my last breath
to repeat the words back to you