Flames Of Deception (Levrés Series #6)

Kabanata 28

That was our routine for the next few days. Tinatanong niya ako kung ano ang gusto kong ulam at iluluto niya iyon. Madalas pa rin ang pagsuka ko. Lalo na kapag may sarsa ang mga ulam. Kaya naman kahit gusto ko ang isang ulam na may sarsa, hindi na ako nagpapaluto. I hate vomiting.

Kyner will just assist me everytime I puked. He didn't ask me anything. Pero alam ko, nagkakaroon na siya ng hinala kahit paano. Because he's smart. It's just that, hindi niya lang ako tinatanong. At kung tatanungin man niya ako, sasabihin ko naman ang totoo. Hindi ko itatanggi. He still deserves to know. If he won't accept my baby, it's fine. At least I told him.

Unti-unti, kapag nagkakasama kami, nawawala iyong galit ko. Nawawala iyong hinala ko sa kanila ni Imogen. Because he assured me everyday even though I didn't ask for it.

Every morning before he goes to his work, he'll come here to prepare me a breakfast. I gave him my spare key, any way. Tuwing tanghali at bago siya umuwi galing trabaho ay pupunta rin siya rito para ipagluto ako ng pagkain. Sinabihan ko na siya na huwag na gawin iyon, but he insisted. Pagtapos ay uuwi siya at magte-text sa akin kapag nasa bahay na. Updating me in everything he was doing. Telling me na he's alone in his house.

Kyner:

I miss you here.

I'm thankful for what he was doing. Hindi ko man aminin ng diretso sa kanya, gustong-gusto ko ang ginagawa niya. Natutuwa ako. Because that's what I want to know. That's what I want.

Me:

I'm fine here.

Kyner:

I'm not fine without you here.

I rolled my eyes but a smile broke on my face.

Today is the day of my check-up. Maaga ako nagising dahil na rin sa excitement. Kahit embryo pa lang ang makikita ko, ayos lang. As long as my baby is healthy, it's fine.

I just wish that I'm not maselan sa pagbubuntis. Dahil baka araw-araw akong mag-alala kung tama ba ang ginagawa ko o kapag may makain akong hindi niya magugustuhan. Sana lang din talaga ay matindi ang kapit ng baby ko. Hold on tight, my baby. I'll give you the best in the world.

Pagtapos maligo at mag-ayos ay umalis na ako. Tinawagan ko si Fred kanina para sunduin ako rito at ihatid sa clinic. Even though he's close with my father, I know he won't tell anything to him. At kahit pa sabihin niya, ayos lang. Wala na rin naman akong balak pa na itago ang anak ko. I'm planning to tell the media that I'm pregnant anyway. If only they would ask, of course.

Pagdating sa clinic ay inasikaso agad ako. Pinapasok ako sa isang room at professional na sinalubong ng isang OB gynecology. We exchange names and after that, she asked me about my pregnancy. I'm impressed because she's straight to the point. I mean, hindi na siya nagtanong pa sa akin ng kung anu-ano tungkol sa buhay artista ko. O kaya ay nagpa-picture man lang.

"When was the last of your menstruation?" she asked and I answered her. "Remove your underwear please," she said.

I've done a research about transvaginal ultrasound. And this is one of them. Good thing I'm wearing a dress.

After removing my underwear, pinahiga ako sa isang kama and she told me to spread my legs. Nakaramdam ako ng hiya nang pumwesto na siya sa may harapan ko. I want to close my legs but I know this is mandatory! At kahit pa babae naman kaming dalawa rito at kahit alam ko, marami na rin siyang nakitang ari ng isang babae ay hindi ko pa rin maiwasan mahiya.

The only person I had spread my legs, butt naked, was in front of Kyner.

Napaigtad ako nang may pinasok sa loob ng pagkababae ko at natigil sa pag-iisip. The OB gyne was talking and here I am, thinking about lewd things about Kyner.