Flames Of Deception (Levrés Series #6)

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I always wonder why my mommy is always sad. Why I rarely see her smile. Why I rarely heard her laugh. Simula noong magka-isip ako, hindi ko na siya nakitang masaya. Iyong totoong kasiyahan. She always fake her smile and her laughter. She always fake everything.

Kaya siguro, nagaya ko iyong pagpapanggap niya kapag kaharap ang ibang tao. Kahit ayaw ko, magpapanggap akong gusto. Kahit ayaw kong ngumiti, ngingiti ako. Kahit hindi ako mabait, magpapakabait ako.

Ang hindi niya lang kayang pekein ay kapag nasasaktan siya. Kapag malungkot siya. Kapag nakakulong siya sa kanyang kwarto at umiiyak ng mag-isa.

"Mommy, look! I'm the top one in our class!" I said excitedly while waving my medals in front of her face.

"Wow, you're the best, sweetheart!" she smiled and patted my head.

My smile widened. I was ready to tell her my day but her smile didn't last for a minute. Ang atensyon na binigay sa akin ay agad din nawala. Napunta ito roon sa cellphone niya. Napalitan ng galit ang mukha niya habang gigil na nagtitipa sa kanyang cellphone.

Bagsak ang balikat na bumalik ako sa aking kwarto. I did everything to make her smile. To make her notice me. Iyong matagal. Hindi iyong ilang segundo lang. Tapos ay mawawala na.

But it's all useless. She won't give her attention to me unless I'll talk about Daddy. Or if Daddy is with us.

Kaya pilit ko tuloy iniisip ang alaala ko noong bata pa ako. Kahit imposible. Gusto ko malaman kung ano ang pakiramdam noong inalagaan niya ako nang sanggol pa lang ako.

They said, she gave her full attention to me. She cared for me. She loves me. She was really happy that she has me. But what happened now? Why did she stopped caring about me? Why did she stopped giving me her attention? Where did it all go wrong?

"Snorri, sweetheart."

My eyes lit up when I saw my mommy inside my room. Umasa agad ang aking puso na baka bibigyan na niya ako ng atensyon dahil nagtungo siya sa aking kwarto!

"Yes, mommy?" I smiled.

"Tell your Daddy that you want us out of town. To have a family time. Gusto mo rin iyon, hindi ba?" she asked while smiling.

My smile faded a bit. It's always like this. It's always about him. But it's fine because I can see her genuine smile when it's all about him.

Binalik ko ang sigla sa akin. "Yes! I'll tell Daddy about it!"

"Great! Call him now, sweetheart!"

Tinawagan ko agad si Daddy para sabihin iyon. I was excited because mommy is smiling while looking at me calling him. But sadly, he's on his way to Cebu right now.

I don't know his schedule or what he's been doing, or where he's been. Because I'm not that close with him. I'm not interested with him. I'm a mama's girl. Dahil na rin siguro wala siya lagi rito sa bahay. Puro trabaho ang inaasikaso niya simula noong mamulat ako. Kaya malayo ang loob ko sa kanya.

I told Mommy about it. Her genuine smile faded. My heart ache. Walang salita siyang lumabas ng kwarto ko. My lips trembled.

Galit akong nagtipa ng mensahe para kay Daddy. Sa kanya ko ibinuntong ang hinanakit ko.

Me:

Lagi na lang trabaho ang inaasikaso mo! Wala ka ng oras para sa amin! Mas mahal mo pa iyan kaysa sa amin! Sana hindi mo na lang binuntis si Mommy kung hindi mo naman kaya maging ama!

My phone ring. He's calling me. I ignored it. Nakadalawang tawag din siya na hindi ko sinagot. Kaya naman nag-text na lang siya.

Daddy: