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FIRST AND LAST? II (JONGHYUN)

(A/N: Before you read this, remember this is the continuation of first and last part. Anyway, this is so much like horror story haha, if you ask me. Requested by @kcelah, hope you like it Geisha xp :))

Your P.O.V

'Anyeong... ________-ah. How's life without me? Is it difficult. Don't worry.. I'm not going anywhere. I'm just leaving you alone to somewhere that we will be together forever.. Did you see me when you have got your eyes? Sorry for not being there. I'll forever beside you. Wether, it's in your heart or not. Don't ask me where I go. Arasso. I'm fine......'

'Okay.. okay... I will tell you.. Take care of yourself... I'm now are part of you... You don't know the meaning??.... I have a lung cancer.. The doctor said my life is not longer anymore. So, I'm giving you my eyes. It's not like I'm giving you my eyes because of that... I'm giving you my eyes because I want to be part of you. I love you.. from the first sight, You always smile when you sad. You always act strong when you are about to fall. You always act like you're not alone but the truth is you are. From that day I saw you, I always peek on my window only to see you from far. And when that day come... I feel like I'm flying. But the doctor inform me that day about the lung cancer. Saranghae ________-ah. Neomaneul Saranghae'

Jonghyun.....

"Nado, saranghae... I will take care of myself. I will take care of my eyes. For you....." I said, my cloth soak from my tear. I realized... I was wrong about him.... He's the first and last... He's the one... No one else will replace him in my heart. Cause he is he. He's special..

"________-ah anyeong." I heard that voice again.. It's Jonghyun....

"Jonghyun-oppa where are you?"

"Ani, let's play hide and seek"

I heard his voice.. Jonghyun's voice.

"Are you okay Miss. _________?" The doctor stared at me with a worried look.

"Do I look like it?" As I rubbed by tears away, I folded the paper and ran away from the hospital. "Miss, where are you going?" Hearing the doctor's voice echoing the hallway, I went to some rooms and locked myself in.

I continued crying, why did it affect me too much? Why did I fell for him in the first place?

I realised, I was actually in the mortuary room.. A single cold wind shivered me. My tears were frozen. Instead of, crying I was... scared..

"W-What's this?" I stuttered, hestitating to walk on the ground.

There were many white bed and it seems, dead.. Dead body were laying on the bed.

"_________-ah, saranghae"

The voice were coming in this room. It was echoing twice, like broken tape. But, it was Jonghyun voice that I am truly sure about it.

"Oppa, Jonghyunnie, where are you?" I asked him although I felt like a mad woman. I kept searching for him and surprisingly my fear had gone.

"Hide and seek"

Again, the voice of Jonghyun telling me to play it. Playing with a ghost?

My chest felt tightened. I felt my heart beating faster, probably the new record of fast heartbeat. 40 times faster than normal one. I felt walking myself.

I saw someone on hiding under the white bed. I went closer and uncovered it.. My heart skipped a beat when I saw..

"Jonghyunnie?" Yes I knew, it was him in the pic..

"Yah, you found me fast. I'll find somewhere to hide. A place will you never found" Jonghyun voice echoing my whole head. His voice..

"I've missed you....." I cried, letting my all tears falling down. It's my evidence that I missed him too much.

I hugged him tightly but I can't. I don't know, I just felt like I can't even touch him. He was so untouchable...

"Oppa, why it's hard to touch you?"

"Because.... I don't know" He giggled and disappeared from my sight.

The aura became gloomy after his disappearance. I didn't caught whatever he said in my mind, instead I was thinking about where he would gone to?

I felt he is near me, very near and as far as I knew he was already pecking my temple. I felt his cold lips, his eyes were sparkling like stars and for the first time, I want to hug him but I remembered how untouchable he was..

"______-ah, I'm already gone and you have to move on. Just don't... forget me, arasso?"

I nodded but was crying. He was.... like... too good to be true...

"Where you are going, oppa?" I asked hopeless. But, he just showed his smile and gone right before my eyes blink..

I took a deep breath and rubbed my tears away. Putting a little force, I tried to stand up but it was harder.. I felt weak, too weak to stand and that is when, I fell on the ground and laid there unconcious.

"oppa..." I muttured between my breath..

**Fast Forward**

I woke up and saw a different surrounding and smell. Oppa.... I searched for Jonghyun but he was nowhere to be found. I saw myself lying on the hospital bed..

"I'm glad you are okay" Said the doctor, staring at my eyes..

I felt better.. No much much better..

"Where's Jonghyun" I asked the doctor but he laughed in a sad way, "He's up there.. You should move on"

"______-ah, I'm already gone and you have to move on. Just don't... forget me, arasso?"

Yeah.. Jonghyun said that too.. Maybe I shouldn't fall for him in the first place. So, I will not get hurt badly..

"Miss. _________, You'll be discharge after two days" The doctor said and leave.

Maybe, we are just not meant to be..

Maybe, Jonghyun is just a star that I couldn't reach. But, I still love him..

Because, he's first and last. Because he will remain to be my first and last.

-The end-