Can Love Happens Twice

Selfish

Henry's POV 

I went to hospital with Judson. Drew is sedated. Duty doctor said Drew had panic attack and they sedated him. Drew is having panic attack in sleep because of nightmares. Don't know when he would come out of it.

I wanted to get Drew home as soon as he wake up . I asked Judson to prepare discharge papers for Drew and go home but he insisted on staying. We both sat in sofa, don't know when I slept

I opened my eyes hearing Drew's voice.

"How are you feeling?" I asked him 

"What are you both doing here?" He asked 

"Waiting for you to wake up so that we can take you home. Discharge papers are ready. Let's go home" I said 

"In the middle of the night? I'm fine Henry, you are worrying unnecessarily" he said 

"Home environment is better. Let's go" Judson said 

By the time we reached home it was past 1am. I messaged Jo that we reached.

"You are sleeping in this room?" Drew asked 

"For few days, yes! No arguements" I said going to bed. I arranged queen bed in Drew's room for me. Till his nightmares stop I will sleep in his room.

I laid down on bed but sleep seems to evade me. I miss Jo. It didn't bother me this much when I was in Australia but sleeping here with Jo and my baby in the next room is very hard. I badly miss them especially when I can see baby bump clearly and my baby responding to me. I wish things fall in place.

I woke up around 5, couldn't sleep after that though I tried so much. I didn't want to disturb Drew so I did morning chores in my room which isn't mine technically. It didn't feel mine without Jo. 

Jo is having breakfast. She looked gorgeous in pink Indian dress. 

"Good morning" she wished

"Good morning, you look gorgeous" i said

"Thank you, I didn't think you would wake up early today" she said shyly

"Jet log, head is banging, couldn't stay in bed longer" i said. I feel terrible

"I will get coffee" she said

"You eat, I will get" i said going to kitchen. She needs rest

I got coffee and sat in front of her

"How is my princess this morning" i said touching her stomach

I felt baby kick harder. My sweet pumpkin understands me

"Mom is coming next week" Jo said looking at her phone

"That's wonderful Jo, it's been so long that I saw mom. Is dad and Pa coming too" I asked. It's been so long that I saw them. I speak to them regularly 

"Hmm, plan is that but now..." She hesitated

"It's ok, they would understand. I will talk" i said taking my phone to call mom

She took phone from my hands. I was confused

"Mom wants to do my baby shower since the time you went to Australia. In our culture baby shower is different. Elders perform the rituals to bless mother and baby. I didn't want without you. When I told her you are coming, she confirmed her visit" she said

I cursed myself for not thinking of baby shower. I'm a bad husband and bad father already

"I'm sorry Jo, I didn't think of your baby shower. Let mom come, somehow we will manage" i said. I didn't want to deprive her of anything 

"No, we can't celebrate in front of Drew since he isn't aware of my pregnancy or our marriage. We will have once we tell him truth" she said

I felt bad. It's all because of me

"Jo, please..." i tried to convince

"No, I don't want to argue" she said firmly

She called mom

"Hi mom" she said

"We will be starting tonight, I got everything you need. Do you need anything else?" Mom asked

"Mom... I ... don't want baby shower... I forgot to tell you...."

"What are you saying Jo? It's tradition, we do it to bless you and baby. Shlok said, we have to do in a month and perform perform Mrutyunjaya homam for your baby... why you don't want? Henry came right, what's the problem?" she asked

"Mom..." Jo hesitated 

"Hi mom" Isaid

"Good morning Henry, is everything ok?" Mom asked

"We will have baby shower mom, don't worry" i said. Somehow I want to do baby shower

"Henry, something happened!" She asked

"Drew is alive" i said

"That's great news Henry, why didn't you tell before. Dad would be so happy. You didn't see him how he was shaken when he heard about Drew's accident. We will be finally meeting Drew. Wait... what is the problem?" Mom asked

"We didn't tell about my pregnancy and marriage mom. Drew was kidnapped and tortured. He is so weak physically and mentally. Don't know how he would take... please understand mom. I will go to temple and perform mrutynjaya homam for baby" Jo said

"I wanted to bring you to India for your delivery after baby shower. It's tradition Jo" mom said sadly

"Can we talk about it later" Jo said looking at me probably not to hurt me. I feel guilty

Mom cut the call saying bye to us

"Go with mom Jo, it's better for you and our baby" i said holding back tears. It's better that way though it's unbearable for me. I can't be selfish

"I can't be happy without you. See even our little one doesn't want to go" she said taking my hand to her tummy. Baby kicked lightly

"I will call priest and ask him to arrange pooja. Please don't ask me to go. Anyway doctor advised me not to travel" She said 

Why are we in this kind of situation? I know I'm hurting Jo, I don't even know if I'm doing right thing. All I know is Drew can't handle truth now.