The tragic story of an innocent girl losing all that made her innocent.
。includes vents +poems ,, mentions of grooming, gaslighting, manipulation, heartbreak, mentions of sh/ed n more
*this is based from things that happened to me,, its not somethin...
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Here i am again, doing what i always do. Muting my followers because i got jealous and sad. what the fuck did i expect? I thought she liked me... idk i thought i was her favorite... but wtf did i expect from this situation?? shes a fucking p3do and here i am getting groomed again because i'm falling in love with her... here i am again, sad, feeling like shit because i fell for another groomer, i thought i would've learned my lesson by now. She doesn't care about me, at least not as much as i felt like she did..its just me being obsessed with her... its my fault. Honestly, i want to block everyone and pretend that never happened.... that she never happened.. that he never happened either. I don't hate her, i dont even dislike her. To say i do would be a lie.
I hate him though.. he pretended to be my friend, to care about me.. it was all manipulation. He never cared about me at all. I had to deal with the constant gaslighting, that i was making up the flirting, that i was fucking crazy. He did that at every turn. He was so good at it i don't even think he fully realized what he was doing half the time.
Honestly i'm so emotionally exhausted and i haven't wrote because i feel like constant shit.. p3dos ruined my life.. they used me and here i am allowing myself to be used again.. i deserve better but deep down thats not what i'm ready for. I know i don't deserve better than this. I'll sit here, willing and ready to be abused. Not fully because i like it but completely because i feel as tho i deserve it. I crave what i don't feel i grew up with, what i don't feel as though my past partners and groomers have given me.. i want everything i have never been given. I think eventually i'll deserve that? I think that's something i really want? Though i'm not sure if i'll ever get that. But thats okay!! I never truly expected it. I never truly believed anyone ever loved me.
