Light Up The Sky

Chapter 28

TW: Sexual Assault & Sexual Trauma

My eyes were open but my surrounding is turning black. Like everything was cast in shadows. They're moving. They're spinning.

I felt so dizzy. There's liquid streaming down the side of my face. There's ringing in my ears. There's a bad taste in my mouth. I want to vomit. I want to leave this place.

But I couldn't move.

My head hurts so bad. My arm stings. My back doesn't feel right. My body... my whole body aches so bad. It's unbearable.

Ayoko na.

Ayoko na rito.

Takot na takot na ako.

Gusto ko nang umalis.

Gusto ko nang umuwi.

Ayoko na rito.

But he won't let me. He kept on doing whatever he was doing to me.

I still felt touched. I still felt his breath on my neck. I still felt his hand on my bare skin under my blouse. I still felt something hard, pounding between my thighs. I am still hearing his voice. I am still begging him to stop even though my mouth is tightly covered. I am still crying.

Until I heard a loud bang.

I wasn't touched anymore. Those hands were off my body now. I couldn't see clearly but silhouettes were moving fast like people fighting in front of me. I could hear curses and loud bangs again.

Magulo ang lahat.

Madilim.

Wala akong makita.

But I wanted to leave.

I walked. I tried to run. But I always lose my balance. Nadapa ako pero bumangon ulit ako at tumakbo kasi ayoko na rito.

Hindi na niya ako hawak pero natatakot pa rin ako.

"Vivienne..."

"N-No," I cried and ran again. As fast as I could. Away from him.

But he caught me by my elbow. I pulled it away but I was only hurt. The arm was twisted even more.

He caught me even more. He pulled me into a hug, a tight hug, and I did try to get away but he didn't let me. He's too strong. I still tried to push him again even though there was no use to that because I feel weak.

Ni hindi ko siya makita. Hindi ako makakita nang maayos. Kaya paano ako lalaban? Paano ako lalaban kung umiikot ang paligid ko? Paano ako?

I let out a loud cry. It was so loud that I couldn't even hear myself breathe.

"Vivienne..."

"L-Let go of me... T-Tama na... Ayoko na r-rito..."

"This is Liam, baby," he said while trembling with poorly contained feral rage. "It's me, baby. I am here now. I am here now, Vivienne."

My eyes were open but I couldn't see him clearly. His image was just black. Everything was black.

"L-Liam..."

"I'm sorry," he said as he kissed the top of my head. "I'm sorry, baby."

That's the last thing I hear before I close my eyes because the headache gets worse.

Nang dumilat ako, parang gusto ko ulit pumikit dahil sa sobrang liwanag. My head starts aching again because the surrounding creates different noise. They're from people around me. I saw faces in front of me but the light was too bright, I couldn't see them clearly.