Chapter Eight: Will You Stay?
I have never felt this before. Ever.
Yung pakiramdam na parang sasabog ka na. I have never felt that before.
Kilala ako sa pagiging kalmado sa pamilya na'min, kaya kapag parang sasabog na si Karine, ako yung laging nandiyan sa tabi niya para pakalmahin din siya.
Kahit kapag galit ako kalmado pa rin ako dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na wala akong magandang makukuha sa galit ko sa isang tao o sa isang bagay.
Kahit na galit din ako, maglalakad lang ako ng konti o makikinig sa playlist ko sa Spotify.
And it works every single time.
I tried everything now.
"You've got to be kidding me..." I whispered to myself while sitting on the floor while listening to the playlist I rarely listen to these days.
It's not working. I even walked around the house, and even from the house to the store, like at this point should I walk to the beach?
Should I swim?
But I can't swim... I think.
I feel so frustrated right now. I really am.
Bakit?
Bakit ba 'ko ganito ngayon?
'Di ko rin alam, ah, baka naman kasi yung lalaking pinakagusto ko na ngako na icecelebrate na'min yung bagong taon na magkasama at pati na rin yung mga pamilya na'min ay bigla na lang binago yung isip niya dahil sa isang babae.
That girl.
I don't even want to explain why, I don't even want to think about her but she's like the reason for his every decision and every day life.
He even texts her whenever he's hanging out with me and my siblings.
Sinusubukan kong umakto na maayos ang lahat pero pagod na 'ko.
Pagod na 'kong umakto na maayos ang lahat. One time I drank exactly 4 cups of coffee because I couldn't stay still, I couldn't hold myself back.
Kaya 'di ako nakatulog nung araw na yun. I had too much caffeine in my system, I ended up sleeping at like 4 am and acted as if I slept well in front of my parents.
Tinanggal ko yung earphones at tinaboy sa kama ko.
Huminga ako ng malalim at itatapon ko sana yung phone ko sa kama rin ng makita ko si Karine na nakatitig sa'kin sa may pinto ng kwarto ko.
"What?" tanong ko sa kanya at nilapag lang yung phone ko sa kama ng maayos kaysa tapon.
She crossed her arms against her chest and sighed at the sight of me looking like a mess, I'm not sure if I looked like a mess but I think I look okay.
Right?
"What happened?" tanong niya.
"Wala. Nothing. Nothing happened." sagot ko tsaka ako tumayo para ayusin ang kama ko at pati na rin yung mga damit na nakakalat sa carpet.
I was also trying to find a good outfit to wear but here I am, I am still wearing my pajamas from last night.
"So something 'did' happen."
"Nothing, Karine, nothing happened."
Fine. Something happened.
Kaya ko pa naman.
BINABASA MO ANG
Heart That Screams Your Name ✔️
RomanceGwendolyn Cerine D. Dixon is known to be the perfect in everything that she does just like Karine. She is strong, gorgeous, and hard-working. She was the perfect woman from everybody's eyes. But just like how Superman has a kryptonite that weakens...
