Heart That Screams Your Name ✔️

Chapter Twenty Nine: Scream, Gwen

Chapter Twenty Nine: Scream, Gwen

WARNING: EXPLICIT CONTENT! 18+

I am lucky.

I know that.

I know that I am a lucky person.

I am lucky to have such great parents, great siblings, a loving family, and to have a life like what I have now.

I am lucky, and I am grateful, I appreciate everything that God has given me.

But I wonder sometimes, how?

Paano ko naangkin ang mga bagay na naging akin?

Paano... paano kita nakuha, Felix?

Sumuko na 'ko noon... o sinubukan kong sumuko dahil pakiramdam ko 'di ko na kaya, 'di ko na kaya dahil nasa iba ang atensyon mo, lagi nilang ibang babae, o may bago kang karelasyon.

I still had questions inside my head.

Ang dami kong tanong sa'yo, sa sarili ko... and to our future.

"Tititigan mo lang ba 'ko o hahalikan, hm?" tanong niya bigla sa'kin at niyakap ako nang mahigpit.

'Di ako nakatulog nang maayos, ang aga kong nagising at punong-puno lang ng mga tanong ang utak ko tungkol sa kanya.

Am I a good girlfriend?

Are you comfortable with me?

Magaling ba 'ko sa kama?

"Hoy, Gwendolyn."

"H-Hm?"

"Tsk, tsk, anong problema, ha? Mamimiss mo 'ko 'no?" he chuckled next to ear and left a kiss on my forehead.

Today is Felix's flight back, it was finally time, alam na'ming dalawa na wala kaming magagawa dahil importante rin ang gusto niyang gawin sa buhay, it's his own career, his own future.

This... was simply inevitable.

"Of course. And I love you." sagot ko.

Pinipilit kong ngumiti sa harap niya pero masakit, masakit kasi 'di ko siya makikita nang mga ilang taon siguro, hindi ko alam... hindi na'min alam.

He would be busy and I'm not ready for that, I want to see him again, I want to be with him and stay by his side forever.

Madami ba 'kong hinihingi?

"I love you too."

And that smile—I am going to miss that smile.

We spent a lot of time together for the past few days after the night of Aster's wedding reception. Gulat ang mga buong pamilya ko at mga magulang na rin ni Felix pagkatapos na'ming inanunsyo na kami na.

Dad was a bit overprotective, he kept asking me if Felix is taking care of me.

Mom was okay, she was so happy.

And my siblings... alam niyo na yo'n.

Inalis ko muna ang pokus mula sa trabaho at binigay ang lahat ng atensyon ko kay Felix. He's leaving and I just want to be by his side until he leaves, I know I'm going to miss him so bad... so I need this.

Kailangan ko siya.

"Kamusta yong pagkain?"

"Masarap." sagot ko agad na may kasamang awtomatikong ngiti sa labi ko.