Tanging Dahilan (Daylight Series #2)

Chapter 11

I told Nathan about what happened yesterday, but I never told him about what I said to Joaquin before we parted ways. Hindi siya makapaniwala sa sinabi ko and still even insist na hindi siya susuko.

He was hoping that he still have a chance with me. Dahil hindi pa naman daw kami ni Nathan. But I told him that I can't give him chance. Kasi kahit hindi pa naman kami ni Nathan pero naramdaman ko na 'yong security whenever his around me.

I feel so secure and safe with him. I feel loved and being taken care of me. Hindi ko inaakala na darating ako sa ganitong phase ng buhay ko. That I would find someone who'll made me feel all of those.

"You're spacing out again, ma'am. Are you still thinking about him?"

Nabalik ako sa ulirat ng marinig ang boses niya. I watched the ocean and it's waves. The sound of the waves is comforting us and the silent it gives us. It's quiet peaceful here.

Nasa Siargao kami for a vacation. Kagabi pa lang kami nakarating dito kasi biglaan din ang pag-aaya ni Nathan. Nagpaalam naman ako kay Papa na mawawala ako ng 1 week, na may meeting lang kaming pupuntahan ng Boss ko.

Ayoko sanang magsinungaling sa kan'ya pero kailangan. Hindi ko pa kayang sabihin sa kan'ya ang nagaganap sa buhay ko.

"Hindi ah! May mga naiisip lang ako." I smiled at him.

I leaned my head in his chest and rest. Ang malamig at natural na simoy ng hangin nang Siargao ay nakakapagpa-kalma. We were here in one of Nathan's rest house in Siargao.

It was a kubo house with all the affordable paintings around the house. Sobrang relaxing ng bahay kasi bukod sa gawang kahoy, sobrang malapit lang din sa dagat.

The ceiling was a nepa and the couch and bed are made of woods. Ang tiles lang sa bahay na 'to is 'yong bathroom. It was a two-storey house na good for 5 people kasi may tatlong kwarto sa taas. Dalawang kwarto naman sa baba.

"What were you thinking then?" He combed my hair gently.

"Siguro kung hindi kami iniwan ng Mama namin. I wouldn't be like this, I won't have this kind of beliefs..." I sighed. "Siguro hindi ako takot magmahal at pumasok sa isang relationship. It was hard... So hard. 'Yong feeling na gusto mo pumasok sa isang relasyon, pero hindi mo kaya. Kasi natatakot kang katulad din ng Mama mo, iiwan ka rin ng lalaking mamahalin mo."

"I wouldn't leave you, Max. I will wait for you until you get ready." He huskily said.

His mentol breathe soothes in my nose. Sobrang bango at maalaga ni Nathan sa katawan niya na isa sa nagustohan ko sa kan'ya. I am attractive to men who also care about his hygiene.