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37. Worthless

Y/n POV

It had been about a month and a half since I came to Georgia. It had just struck me how much I missed my dear friends. I really didn't feel like going to set today. After week three things started getting serious. We had rehearsed every necessary scene. Now we would be actually recording. Elodie and I had become good friends but Millie, Sadie and I were much closer.

Finn had to go to set with Millie and Noah first so I was left alone with no one to talk to for the next hour. Not that I was going to rant about all my problems and worries. He had been doing this for almost half of his life. I'm sure he would think I was being a baby. I hated the fact that we basically got five hours of sleep at most.

I texted Hailey and April hoping to strike a conversation out of the blue. I hadn't had a lot of time to talk to my friends much because of how busy I was and hanging out with Millie and Sadie. Not to mention I sort of had a boyfriend now. Which I was hoping to keep a secret from them until I knew for sure they wouldn't say anything.

It wasn't because I didn't trust them its just sometimes they forgot it was a secret. Like that time I had set my house on fire. Hailey had accidentally tweeted about this which ended with me getting grounded for three weeks. I also couldn't cook my own food for even longer than that. A message popped up at the top of my screen

Messages between Y/n, Hailey and April

|Y/n| hey guys its been a minute 
|April| More like a year! Why haven't you texted us?
|Hailey| well at least shes still alive. but now whats your excuse for bassicsdy ghosting us??
|Hailey| bassically*
|April| girl its basically
|Y/n|  I know I forgot to call and text but Ive reallybusy
|Hailey| Well at least its now and not never.
|Y/n| I'm sorry 😣
|Hailey| look Y/n we expected more from you I mean you've only called us in the first week then never texted or called again
|April| I hate to say this but its true
|Y/n| Look i know you guys are upset but i have been really busy i swear
|April| even if you were busy you couldn't call us atleast once?
|Hailey| you said wed stay in touch.
|Y/n| are you guys serious?
|Hailey| why wouldn't we? our best friend leaves us for some stupid acting career and then never talks to us again?
|Y/n| you knew how much this meant to me and I'm sorry that you are so self absorbed that you can't even see or think about what I have been going through. I can't even rest for more than six hours bc im too busy trying to make everyone around me happy and trying to not screw up everything at work and you just made everything so much better
|April| well you still never called
|Y/n| neither did you
|Y/n| do you expect me to be the only one to make an effort in this?
|Hailey| would you have even picked up?
|Y/n| well we'll never know now
|Hailey| youve changed a lot, I don't know if i know you anymore. Im sure you had lots of time to hang out with Millie or Noah who gives a fuck. Guess everyone at school was right and you really are a fucking worthless bitch who can't get enough of themselves
|April| Hailey doesnt mean that
|April| why would you even say that?
|April| Y/n she doesnt mean it shes just angry you know how she can be
|April| Y/n answer.

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I turned my phone off. Did everyone really think that of me? I never heard anyone say anything about me at school. Even if they did say that why wouldn't Hailey or April or anyone else told me? Tears threatened to spill from my eyes. Even worse was I had no time to be sad because I had to go to set in 20 minutes.

With teary eyes I went to the bathroom and wiped my tears. Did they really think I was a worthless bitch? What had I even done for them to think this? More and more tears fell from my eyes. A small sob escaped my lips. I slid to the ground as my tears made my vision blurry.

I sat in the bathroom floor and cried. My arms cradling my knees.