Chanel P.O.V
September 3rd ,2021
3:45 A.M
I look over on the dresser to see my phone ringing loudly. Its 3AM, what could anyone possibly want?
" Hello?" I answer
" Hi, This is Mercy Grace hospital, is this Ms.Chanel Mills?" The person ask
" Yes this is she. May I ask what this is about? " I ask sitting up
" I'm calling to inform you that Ms. Jade Andrews has been admitted. She got into a horrible wreck & you were first in her emergency contacts. " The Doctor says
I instantly shoot up outta bed & put my robe on while grabbing my keys. " Is she okay? Is she alive?" I ask running down stairs
" Yes she's alive but unstable. Please come down immediately, her condition is not well" He says
I run down & slip my slides on , this has to be my worst nightmare. I love her even though we not together, she was my whole heart at one point!
I race to the hospital, running stop signs & red lights. Why finding a park at a fucking hospital so hard!?
I get out & try to find a nurse or anybody that works here.
" Hi im here for Jade Andrews, what room is she in? " I ask the lady at the desk
" Hi, im assuming your miss Chanel mills? " She asked
" Yes Thats me " I said
" The doctor is going to speak to you before going in , one second" she said paging the doctor
" He'll be here in a second! Have a seat please" she says
5 minutes later a random doctor walked up "Chanel Mills? " He ask
" Yes , thats me. Is she okay? " I ask
" Ms.Mills shes in okay condition. She got into a horrible car wreck due to her being intoxicated. Luckily she didn't injure anybody else but she did crash into a tree. She will need surgery on her back though " He says
" I told her about drinking so much. Is she at least conscious enough for me to speak with her? " I ask
" Yes, she is. But be gentle and try to just speak softly with her. " He says leading me to the room
" Jay ... what the hell man " I say as tears brim my eyes while I look at her bruised body
" Nu... I just got out of control. I havent been drinking alot I swear. Tonight was just different " She says lowly , she spoke a little above a whisper
" Why even let it get to that point? Explain something, hell anything ! You literally almost killed yourself & could've harmed someone else. I dont like seeing you like this , you completely out of control at this point. " I say not being able to hold in my words
" Like you would care if I did Chanel. Like you would fucking care about anything other than yourself & that bitch you fuck. I've literally been in my drowning in depression and you haven't checked on me once. Everything in my life just keep going down , you left , my pops just died, got suspended from my job, and the list could go on. So im sorry if I got out of control & me drinking is a problem for you but personally I cant give not one fuck right now about what you think. " she says getting louder & louder with each word , looking like shes about to pass out
" You need help Jade. Real help. Your a fucking alcoholic that doesn't see it! Dont blame me or anything else for you almost killing yourself. Im sorry about all the horrible things that have happen but life is a bitch so you have to deal with it. Thats the harsh reality of everything. Im not selfish because if I was I wouldnt have drove here breaking every damn driving law there is to get to you! To fucking you! So instead of feeling sorry for yourself, your gonna get your shit together. Your going to go to rehab & get your shit together after this surgery. No matter if you care or want to , I cannot stand here and let you kill yourself. " I say basically yelling turning red in the face
She was speechless , but that was expected. Jade has always been outspoken but in this moment she was quiet with her mind racing. She hates when i'm right and she's wrong. In this situation its not a right or wrong , its life or death.
" I'm going to call your mom and when she makes it im going home to get some things together." I say leaving out the room to go into the hall
I call her mom and explain the situation , its hard hearing somebody dukes breakdown because their kid doesnt wanna live anymore. After the call I just sit in her room and watch her sleep. Watching her vital monitor beep , praying that she'll be okay.
2 hours roll by and her mother shows up and takes my seat. I inform her that I'll be back shortly and head out to my car. I hadnt been on my phone in a minute so I didnt see all the missed calls I had from Miracle.
4:38 - Chanel where are you?
4:38- Why arent you answering my calls?
4:45- Im not playing with you! Call me before i go crazy
4:50- Please call me
5:00- Chanel please come home you scaring me
I love how much she cares about me. I text back letting her know im on the way home and not to worry. Sitting there in the silence just made me breakdown. I felt like it was my fault , like in the problem and could've saved her. I love Jade but I just feel she got other problems to tackle then us getting back together. She needs to work on her inner demons before getting back with anyone else , including me.
I start driving back home , just lost all the way in my thoughts. I lived in my head mostly anyways so this wasn't rare. Thinking about things ive been thru with jade and where ima go from here with Miracle.
Its like im stuck between everything and making a decision. I dont wanna make the wrong one and forever regret it. I could always just be patient and I guess let everything play out ....
AN: Sorry for not updating for a minute , life been crazy lately!
