hate you but love you ( Dekubaku )

losing you 💔

Pov Deku

Damn it . What have I done . Kacchan is so hurt... " I say to myself as I run to the medical store .I buy the pain meds and head towards kacchan's house .I get to his room but he's not here . I start getting worried .where did he go ? I look around the house but he's not home . Oh god where's kacchan
.... I call kirishima . He picks up

" Kirishima ! Have you seen kacchan ?!"

" Woah what's up with sudden question Midoriya ? Yeah I've seen Bakugou like 2 minutes ago at UA . "

* At UA!? Why ? "

" I don't know . Maybe he's gonna train or something he head towards the training room building"

" Thanks kirishima . I'm getting there ! Please keep an eye on him for me ! It's a request! "

" Huh ..? Ok sure " he gasps " BAKUGOU !!!! "

" kirishima ?! What's wrong !? Is kacchan ok !? " I hear running sounds as I jump toward UA "

" Bakugou !! Wake up ! " " Midoriya !! get to UA fast !! " The call ends

I keep running towards UA . Why did kirishima suddenly scram his name ...what happened so suddenly .. !? He was at a building ... ?! No it can't be ! I rush to UA and see a big crowd Infront of the highest building in UA . I rush in and push the crowd as I see what was going on .... It was kacchan laying lifelessly on kirishima's Arms  . He's bleeding so much . kirishima keeps calling him ! I notice recovery girl healing him no .. she's only trying to stop the blood..  kacchan.. " KACCHAN !!!" I rush to him . My tears fall repeatedly. " Please wake up... " I cup his face which is covered in blood . He isn't breathing... " Kacchan " I sit there being stunned... He's dead ... He's not breathing... He committed suc1de because of what I did to him... He's gone  .... Forever.... I hear ambulance sirens and see some people taking kacchan into the ambulance ... I can't move ... Everything feels heavy... Kirishima is sheaking me ... I can't respond... Kacchan is dead ... because of me .. I killed him ... I killed him .. I killed him ... I killed the person I love the most ... I feel like someone is lifting me up I notice it's kirishima . He takes me inside the ambulance as we drive off . The doctors are doing their best to make him breath again ...but he doesn't respond . They put oxygen mask on kacchan's face . As if that'll work... He's dead ... My tears keep falling I look down.. I'm a monster... He was right I can never be a hero... Kacchan was always right... A killer and a rapist like me can't be a hero ..I ended kacchan ... It's all over ... he's gone ..

My body goes numb....

I hear one of the doctors saying " we're sorry...we lost him ..."

My heart skips a beat. I gasp . Recovery girl rush in and starts healing kacchan...but he's dead ... The doctor just confirm it ..

" Midoriya ! Are you ok !" I faint voice hit my ear .

I can only look at kacchan. I can't respond to anyone... my body feels like it'll fall apart .. my mind is so foggy . ..

We reach the hospital and they take kacchan somewhere... Probably to the other dead bodies... He's dead ..he won't come back ... He said he always wanted me to be safe... I finally got to know why he used to bully me ...he said sorry several times but i kept hurting him ...he was crying... begging me to stop... I didn't... I made him think everyone hates him ... I couldn't even get to apologize to you kacchan... I wanna apologize...but you're gone...
Kacchan is gone ... He's de@d because of me ... I k!lled him ... I love so much but I kept hurting him ... Kacchan I don't wanna lose you...

Flashbacks start to fill up my mind . " Kacchan you're so awesome your quirk is amazing" little me says " I know I'm the best . Now go get your quirk too izuku we gotta be heros " kacchan says . He wanted me to be a hero along with him ... But after he got to know I'm quirkless he changed... But he was right... I can't be a hero without a quirk... Even Almight said that then he gave me his quirk... But kacchan didn't know about it ..

" Nerd ! You'll fuckin die like a loser in the exams ! You can't be a hero without a quirk ! Quit the exam. ! "

" No I won't ! Kacchan let me go " he starts beating me up . He ruin my chance to get into the hero course...but I somehow managed to get in class 1A...

I hated him for ruining my chance and bullying me. " That's what you get ! " I slam harder to him " Deku please stop !!! It hurts so bad !" He passes out.

" Izuku... I'm sorry..."

" I only stop you cause I didn't want you to die in the exam "

" I never knew you had a quirk ... I guess I didn't deserve to know... I hurt you in the past .."

" Izuku... I'll d!e .."

" I'm so sorry izuku "

" It hurts ... Izuku ... My body hurts so bad please stop ... I'll d1e "

" I can't take it anymore... Izuku it hurts "

" I love you ... izuku ... I just wanted you to be safe ..."

Those words keep playing in my mind . " AHHH ! " " KACCHAN ! " I cry out breaking down... My quirk active but I don't care ... Everything is going blurry... But I can see kacchan right infront of me ... He's crying... I'm hurting him ... I don't wanna... I don't wanna hurt kacchan ... I see him calling my name as he bl33ds I'm trying to stop myself but I can't ... I try to reach him but he fades away
..." KACCHAN NO !! KACCHAN COME BACK PLEASE !! PLEASE KACCHAN I CAN'T LOSE YOU ! " I can see my hands are bl00dy . Kacchan ... Is gone ... forever ... It can't be ..I nead to reach him ..I need to apologize ... I have to die with him ... That's right .. I'll be joining you kacchan ..  right now .

someone is sheaking me . It's kirishima ... he's on his unbreakable from..." SNAP OUTTA IT MIDORIYA ! BAKUGOU IS NOT DEAD YET !!! "

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