The Fading Star

Nene: I'll Do My Best

I arrived at my home and went to my room.
I sat down on my bed and took the letter out of my pocket.
I stared at it for a while before opening it.

"Nene,
Thank you for being such an amazing troupe member and friend.
Please don't beat yourself up over my death.
I needed a release and this was the only way.
There was something I wasn't able to accomplish in this life.
Which of course was being a star.
That dream faded a very long time ago.
But Nene I know that you will be able to shine on stage.
Even if I'm not here I'll be cheering you on.
For me this is the final curtain.
Also make sure to take care of Rui and Emu.
-Tsukasa"

I could feel my eyes tearing up as I reread the letter.
This doesn't feel real...
If I was there for him- if I asked him how he was feeling or even just checked up on him maybe this wouldn't have happened.
I could've prevented this...
I know I could've .
He says not to beat myself up over this but I can't help it.
I've lost a troupe member, that I could've saved.
I know that I'll have to accept his death one day.
But that day will not be today.

"I'll try not to be so hard on myself but I know that I'll never forgive myself for letting this happen.
You say that this is your final curtain but I don't think that's true.
It's true that when it's the final curtain that means the musical is over. But that doesn't mean that it's the last time the musical will be shown.
If you're in the middle of being isekaied I hope that world treats you better.
I'll do my best Tsukasa."